Weight Loss

I don't want to turn my blog into a weight loss blog, but me trying to get healthy and into shape is a big part of my life right now. So I will be bringing this up from time to time.

I've been watching my eating and working out consistently for about a month now. There were 10 days when I didn't work out after I had my little foot surgery. Still I kept track of my eating.

I've lost 7 pounds. Which I know is great, but why haven't I lost more???

There has to be something I'm doing wrong, but I just can't figure it out. I've maintained my weight which is good, but I was expecting a little more weight to come off.

I lost those 7 pounds in just one week, and I was over the moon. I thought that set the pace really well and I was going to be continuing losing from here on out. Ever since that weigh in, I haven't lost any more. And I'm frustrated.

I know it's going to take me a long long long time to lose the weight, but me not losing any is making me feel like a failure and I should just quit. I get discouraged quickly, and it's taking a lot of me to keep this up.

I understand that losing weight has a lot to do with your mentality. Maybe I'm not there yet in my head. Maybe that figurative light bulb hasn't quite clicked on with me yet. Either way I'm getting annoyed and upset. I can't let this deter me! I will keep moving forward.

Any tips on how to kick start weight loss? Or how to get your head in line with your body?

Vacation

In less than 2 weeks I'm going on vacation!!! While I couldn't be more excited to have a week of relaxing in the sun, I'm a little nervous.

I'm taking my two 16 year old cousins with me. At the time I thought it was a good idea. My cousins rarely ever get to go away on vacation or do anything really fun. So I like to try and give them some fun and entertainment. Also none of my friends could get away that week, so instead of vacationing by myself, I now have company.

But now I'm worried that I am not responsible enough to care for two teenagers for a week. Or be able to keep them occupied for the whole week, and not want to kill them. Also what if something bad happens?

I tend to get nervous about certain situations and this is one of them. I think of every bad thing that can possibly happen and then freak over it. What if the plane is delayed and we miss the connection? What if I crash the rental car? What if my cousins have a terrible time?

I know that no matter what happens, everything will work itself out, but I can't help worrying. Once I get there, I'll be fine. It's this build up that drives me crazy. Plus my mother isn't very helpful. She is constantly saying passive aggressive comments to me about this trip. Which is causing my to second guess myself.

I just need to keep focusing on the vacation itself and having a week away from everything. Being in the sun, on the beach, by the pool, in the lazy river they have on the resort. Eating out, going shopping, maybe a trip to Orlando.

Thinking of that, makes me smile and I know that this trip will be great.

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Success!

Last week I was a bit of a debbie downer. Thankfully the weekend recharged me and I'm feeling much better this week!

My foot is getting better. The pain is slowly going away and I can stop wearing the boot by Saturday! Hopefully in a month I will be totally pain free.

I was also frustrated with my eating habits and also not being able to work out. While out running errands this weekend I decided to buy a scale. This is a big step for me. Scales scare the crap out of me, and I don't want to become one of those people who has to weigh themselves every day to see if there is a difference.

I came home and decided to bit the bullet and just weigh myself. I was dying to see if there was some progress. I was weighed the day before my surgery, so weighing myself on Sunday was 10 days later.

I lost 7 pounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't believe it. Without being able to workout I still managed to lose some weight! I guess my eating habits aren't all that bad right now! Seeing that number gave me the boost I needed and now I know I am really on the right track.

ugh

Foot pain wise. Today is not a good day. I'm in a lot of pain. Maybe it's the rainy weather or what, but I just want to go home, prop up my foot and watch some movies. Alas I'm stuck in work allllll day.

Oddly, I am really missing the gym. With my foot, gym has been off limits all week and I miss it!! Me!! I would have never ever thought that was possible. I miss getting beat up working out and just feeling great when I get home.

I really felt like I was on the right track to get healthy, but with this operation I feel like I'm back at the beginning. Since I can't work out, I've been trying to get my eating in order and I've been a major fail. Even with eating all the right foods I keep going over in calories! It's driving me crazy!!!

I know it's going to take a long time to change my eating habits, but I wish I would be able to make some progress. I'm going on vacation in a few weeks and I would love it if I could lose like 10 pounds before then. Just 10 pounds! At least then I know I was moving in the right direction.

Ugh. Today is just a sucky day. I'm just frustrated with everything.

Hopefully tomorrow is better.

black and blue

The surgery was a lot more intense that I thought it would be. When I woke up I was in a lot of pain. A lot more pain than the last time I had this done. I'm not sure why, but I think he gave me multiple injections into my foot. I guess he really wanted to make sure he did a good job. lol. My foot is really swollen and my heal is all black and blue which is very attractive. But I am starting to feel a lot better.

On Friday I could barely walk, I even broke out my crutches to use because I was so bad. Saturday I was still in a lot of pain but just a little bit better. Sunday I was a lot better thankfully. Everyday I'm having less and less pain which is great. Hopefully by next weekend I'll be back to normal and can stop wearing this little boot on my foot.

I really really hope this one sticks. If not than I'll probably have to get surgery, but I'm not even going to think about that yet. Just focusing on the now. I'll keep you updated on my progress.

Oh something funny happened during the operation. The doctor had to take some blood out of my arm to do the procedure. I was in twilight, but apparently when he put the needle in I called him a "but mother effer". lol. My doctor told me that everyone in the room busted out laughing. Talk about embarrassing, but I love that I can entertain people. Even when I'm not conscious.