It's Hump Day!

I didn’t go bowling. I was actually starting to look forward to it but then I got slammed at work and ended up not being able to go. Oh well. I was able to get a whole lot of work done. I was one of 3 people on my floor, and it was nice being there when it was that quiet and not have anyone bother me. Plus I finished up early and left work early. I ended up getting home an hour earlier than usual. Me getting home that early is way better than going bowling. I actually didn’t know what to do with myself I was home so early.

Even though it’s only Wednesday, since I decided to take Friday off work it really feels like Thursday for me. I am really looking forward to this weekend, and I can’t wait for it to be tomorrow already. I went from having nothing to do these past few weekends to having plans back to back for this weekend. I’m not even sure if I’ll be able to keep up. I will be going to Maryland on Friday for my friend’s birthday. We will go out into Baltimore for the festivities and then on Saturday we plan on either nursing our hangovers or shopping depending on how we feel. Then I leave Saturday afternoonish to come back to NJ and get ready for another night out. That is the part that I am scared about. I’m not sure if I will even feel up to going out after that long day. But I am determined to do it because a bunch of my friends from out of town will be going. Sunday will be dedicated to sunning myself followed by another night out with friends, except we will be going out early to go to this bar on the beach. Sunday’s at like 6 is when this place is really busy. Which is nice because I will get home at a decent time. Monday will be the day of rest for me. Thankfully.

Do any of you have special Labor Day plans?

This my be TMI

But I am going to share with you anyway. I have been on “The Pill” for a very long time. One of the great things about this (besides knowing the exact time I will get my period) is that I can skip my period whenever I want to. Since this coming weekend is Labor Day and I will be all over I decided to go ahead and do just that. It will be lovely not having to worry about it.

Even though I can skip my period I unfortunately can’t skip any of the symptoms. The bloating, cramps, breakouts, and being in a terrible mood still happen. Which may be why I am acting like a huge bitch today and I am getting irritated at the smallest things. It’s like I can’t help it. I know I am being ridiculous but at the same time I can’t stop! Thankfully I decided to take this coming Friday off to make this coming weekend even longer. I only have to be a bitch at work for the next few days, but I am hoping it ends today.

It also makes me anti-social. I’m supposed to go bowling with the entire floor tomorrow as a team-building thing, but it is the last thing I want to do. Even though I would get to leave work early to go, it still means I wouldn’t get home until way later then I usually do. I went last time they had it and it was not nearly as fun as I thought it would be. Okay see what I mean. I am being a bitch and a snob again. Does anyone have Midol?

Thursday Thoughts: where did the Summer go??

It’s been a crazy busy week for me work wise. I haven’t really had a moment to myself, hence the lack of posting. I might have to start writing when I get home instead. The last thing I want to do is stop blogging, which I am afraid will happen if I continue this. By the way is it bloging or blogging? Oh well. I’ve tried keeping journals in the past, but I always forgot about them or just stopped doing them for whatever reason. I never really commit to them; I have about 4 different ones in my room that were started at different times. I never really commit to anything but that’s another story. But I am committed to keeping up with this. It is important to me; it helps keep me level headed about things.

Well anyway back to my life. It is pretty boring. Nothing new to report. Expect that I am so happy being able to park at the train station. It really saves me some time in the day. I even get home a few minutes earlier now. Which isn’t really a lot but it does make a difference between getting home at 8:30 and 8:40.

I am very happy it is almost Friday. This week has seriously flown by. I cannot believe that the weekend after is Labor Day!! Where did the summer go?? Since that will be my last summer Friday, I decided to take a half-day and have a nice little 4-day weekend. That Friday I will be going to visit some friends in Maryland. I am a little worried about traffic, but I’m hoping if I leave really early I should beat it. I will come back late Saturday so I can avoid traffic, and that way I still have 2 days to just relax and enjoy my weekend.

This coming weekend I will be going to the beach. It’s been so nice out and with summer quickly coming to an end I want to go as much as I can. Plus last weekend my trip to the beach kind of sucked thanks to a creepy old man that decided to stalk me, making me leave much earlier than I wanted. Seriously this guy was ridiculous. One his bathing suit was yellow and completely see through. He put his towel right near mine and proceeded to keep inching closer and closer to mine. He was even lying on his side just staring. THEN when I went into the water, HE went in to. Never right near but I could feel him staring. SOOOO CREEPY. When I got back, he was really close to my towel so I just packed up. As I was packing, he stated to pack up. I got really scared and went on my cell phone and pretended to talk to someone as I walked back to my car. Thankfully he didn’t follow me. He just decided to go down the beach and park right next to another girl; I guess he hoped he would have better luck there. I was grossed out for the rest of the day. Why do I always seem to attract these kinds of people?? Where are the normal guys???

A few things

I no longer have to park in the “satellite”, AKA the Sears parking lot that is about 1.5 miles away, lot to take the train. I can now park at the actual train station. No more having to take the shuttle, which means I get to sleep in 15 minutes later every morning! I am very excited. I’m not really sure why I got this before a lot of the other shuttle riders. Some of them have been waiting YEARS to get into the train station lot. Luck was on my side I guess. My fellow shuttle buddies were all very jealous of me when they saw me walking up.

Then I get to work this morning and when I went to the vending machine to buy a bottle of water (I had forgotten mine at home) I ended up with TWO. This must be my lucky day or something. I also find it strange at how these 2 things can make me so happy. But whatever it’s the little things like this that get you through the day.

Today is my grandma’s 86th birthday. We had a nice little get together on Saturday to celebrate. The woman is 86 and is in better health than I am. I am in complete awe of this woman. One day I must make a post about her and all that’s she’s done. It is amazing; especially considering she never went to school and can’t read or write English.

At the get together we had homemade Manicotti, meatballs, chicken, eggplant parmigean, and broccoli rob. All this food she made from scratch, most of it came from her garden, including the tomato sauce, and the only thing she bought from the store was the chicken and meat. She really should have opened up a restaurant she is an amazing cook.

This coming weekend my best friend is finally coming home!! I am so excited to have her back! It’s only Monday but I am seriously counting down the days to next weekend.

Thursday Thoughts: Books

I am spending way too much money at Barnes and Noble. Just last weekend I spent about $70 on books!! I do that about every 2-3 weeks. I need to start going to the library or I will be broke soon. But am I the only one who likes to own their books?? I just love owning books and doing what I want with it.

Do any of you have any suggestions for books?? I always love getting recommendations. Even on the train I always look around to see what people are reading to give me ideas. One book I recommend to you is The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger. It is amazing. I’m not really into Sci-Fi but this was Amazing. It is actually being made into a movie, but I seriously suggest you read the book first. I don’t usually like when books are made into movies because a lot gets changed or it just isn’t the same, but this novel I think will translate well into film.

You know the saying “Don’t Judge a book by its cover”?? Well I have to say that I always judge a book by its cover! Of course I read the back of the book to see what it is about, but the only reason why I picked it up in the first place is because of the pretty/interesting cover. Don’t get me wrong I do read some books that have a less interesting front, but those are usually recommended to me or I had read a review about them.

I don’t think I could ever buy those romance novels just simply because of their covers. You know what I’m talking about right, the ones with Fabio half naked and in a passionate embrace with a woman. I’m not really into books like that, I need some sort of sustenance in the book, but if I was interested I would feel weird buying it. Mostly because I would be reading it on the train and I wouldn’t want my fellow commuters to judge my reading choices. Unfortunately I do it all the time, so I can’t be the only one. If I were to really want that book I would probably only read it at home, the beach, or some place private. That way no one can really see what I am reading.

I know you think I am crazy, but I can’t help thinking these things. It’s not that I really care what people think, but I have just always done this. Another thing that makes people think I’m crazy is when I am reading and I gasp or laugh at something. I just can’t help myself. Do any of you have weird tendencies when it comes to books or anything else?

Can I add dog walker to my resume?

Last weekend I decided to get my dog out of the house more. Since I work so late the only time I can really give him a good walk is on the weekends. For the first walk we only were out for about 30 minutes. You would think we were gone for 3 hours. My dog didn’t know what to do with himself. We were halfway home and his tongue was basically hitting the floor and was panting like crazy. He’s only 10 pounds!! There is no reason he should have been so tired. This makes me more determined to try and walk him whenever I can. Plus added bonus, its good exercise!

Speaking of walking. When I go to work in the morning I always have my ipod in. I get bored easily so listening to music on the train helps the time go by faster. Plus if I put on some easy listening I can usually fall asleep for part of the ride. I don’t take it off until I get into the office. It was weird when I took my dog for a walk because I didn’t take my ipod with me. I felt a little naked without it. It was like I didn’t know what to do with myself. After a while, I relaxed and realized how not listening to music makes you really appreciate your surroundings. You take your time, you notice what’s going on, and you can really take in the beauty of the day. I know I’m sounding lame right now, but seriously who does that nowadays? Really stop to take in what is going on around them. Being a commuter, you basically power walk to your office and plow people down that are going to slow. I am defiantly that person who gets pissed when someone pauses to look at something. But now I see the other side of it. So while I will still be listening to my tunes on the way to work, on the weekends when I walk with my dog it will not be allowed.

Also I feel like if I took it my dog would feel ignored. You know when someone has your headphones on and it is so awkward trying to talk to them and/or you feel like your annoying them? Well I didn’t want my dog to feel that way. Which I know sounds stupid, but I would feel bad if I did that.

Pity Party Time

Lately I feel like I have nothing to blog about. Which is strange because last week was kind of a crazy week for me and I still didn’t feel that it was blog worthy. Also a lot of it had to do with work and if I talked about the one thing I wanted to talk about you could figure out where I work. That sentence just made zero sense to you. Moving on.

I think what may be the problem is that I’m starting to accept my very bland life. I hate that it is happening but I can’t seem to stop it. Yes I still hate my job, but at the same the company has really nice perks and the girl I’m sitting next to is becoming a good acquaintance. We’re not quite friends, but we are work buddies. That makes the day suck just a little bit less. Also, I’m not looking for a job. Every time I do there very little out there and what I can find doesn’t really interest me. It was depressing, so I’ve stopped. I told myself that I will start seriously searching again in September when things pick up and there are more jobs. I am very afraid that October will roll around, I will have no job, and I will have been working at this place for 1 year! I really don’t want that to happen. Even if I am starting to like the people a little more and I don’t feel like killing myself in the morning I know that this isn’t what I want to do for the rest of my life.

The question still remains. What do I want to do??? I still have no idea. How is that possible??????? I am getting really upset about this. I feel like a lot of people say this but I don’t believe them. Even if they don’t know what they want to do, most have an idea or a direction that they will start at. I don’t have an idea. I have like 10 ideas. Maybe I’m a nomad and will just end up jumping from job to job. I really don’t want to do that. Why can’t I just be normal and pick something and stay with it.

I’ve been seriously considering going back to school for a masters. Yes it will cost me a lot more money, but at the same time it will help me clear my head and figure out what I want to do. Now there are 2 options. Option one go and get my masters in Social Work. It’s something that I’ve always wanted to do and I think I would do well in that field. Option two is go to school for photography. I love taking pictures and want to learn as much as I can about it. I’m afraid that I would either suck at it or have a really hard time getting a job in it. I don’t know what to do. I also keep going back to wanting to work at either a makeup company or doing makeup for weddings. AHHHHHH. You see?? I literally can’t make up my mind. I was only supposed to put 2 options and I ended with 3. If I had not realized this I probably would have kept going. I need help. I just wish someone would tell me what to do. I obviously cannot pick my own future.

I thought by writing this post I would have more clarity about things, but have now ended up more frustrated then ever. Maybe this is why I haven’t wanted to write in a while. I was pushing this down and my mind decided to just ignore all this and pretend that everything is okay. IT IS NOT. I need to stop being lazy and figure out what the hell I am doing with my life.

What do you think?

Is it bad that I am really offended by the fact that my dog pees in front of my bedroom door? Granted he is really old and can’t really control his bladder anymore but the damn dog only goes to the bathroom in front of my door. I would say like 3 times a week I wake up in the morning to find a big puddle in front of my door. A couple of those times I’ve stepped in it. He’s even pooped in front of it! What the hell?? Nowhere in the house does he do this, I am the only one who gets the pleasure. What do you think; does my dog officially hate me so much that he is taking measures to show me??

Going up??

The building where I work only has 12 floors. You would think that since there are 3 elevators that it wouldn’t really take that long for the elevator to reach your floor. It’s actually quite the opposite. It takes forever to reach my floor. I always feel like I am waiting forever for the elevator to come. Mix that with my impatience and the need to get to the hell out of the office at the end of the day, and you have a very angry person.

Well yesterday I was waiting for the elevator to come. About a minute passes by (but I swear it feels like 5) and I start to pace back and forth. In my mind, the pacing will make the elevator come more quickly. Another minute goes by (which is like 10 for me) and I’m really getting angry. I’m walking around in circles because the pacing just wasn’t cutting it. Finally another minute goes by and I’m about ready to take the stairs. Walking down 11 flights will of course be faster than this thing!!! As I make my way to the door, I look down and I see that I DID NOT PRESS THE BUTTON!!! I am an idiot. Of course as soon as I hit the down button the elevator is there within seconds. I really need to get my head together. I am officially losing it.

Noise in the morning

You know what really puts a damper on the weekend?? Having people come to your house at 7:30 in the morning on Saturday to demolish your bathroom. Yep. We are getting one of our bathrooms totally redone and their first visit was on Saturday at 7:30 in the morning!!! Needless to say I was not a happy camper. But I decided to make the best of it and get a good start at the beach. Only to realize that it was very cloudy and was going to rain that way. Hrmp. I was very upset. So I settled for a movie instead. I saw Brideshead Revisited and it was really good. The cinematography was amazing. I would suggest seeing the movie just strictly for that. Nothing else really happend. It was defiantly a laid back weekend. Which was nice, and I got to sleep in really late on Sunday to make up for the fact that I got very little the day before.

Also my house only has one bathroom for the rest of the week which should be interesting. Both my mom and my brother are bathroom hogs. But the good thing is the new bathroom will be really nice and twice the size it used to be!