Wednesday, August 8, 2012

What do I want to be when I grow up?

I'm 28 years old and I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. This is something I've been struggling with for a few months now. I've been at my work for almost 5 years now and I think I'm ready for a change. I've become complacent and a little bored. I've also been given promises of a new job that have yet to be seen through.

I love where I work though. I love my friends here and the benefits/perks they give us. It's truly a wonderful company. I just feel stuck lately. And I don't know how to get unstuck. I say I need a new job but I haven't even so much as looked around. Mostly because I have NO IDEA what I would want to do next. I know if I were to make a change, it would be to something totally different. And that is so scary.

The unknown is terrifying. And I would be jumping in feet first. I just wish I had some inkling of what to do next. All I do know is I need to stop talking the talk and start walking the walk. I need to take action in some way.

I hate feeling so lost. It's making me sad and not only that, it's making me overeat. I'm up like 8 pounds right now and I am absolutely miserable. I feel awful inside and out. Today's a new day though. I'm back on track with my eating and hopefully this weekend I'll be brave enough to start looking around for new opportunities.


Margaret (Peggy or Peg too) said...

I know this doesn't help you but it's so friggin' normal Carolyn.
I've had many cycles like this and I'm an old broad now. Still feeling that way. But opportunity lies in difficulty as you well know.

What would you do if fear was not in the equasion? That answer is what you should do.

erin - heart in ireland said...

hugs! i know how you feel - the last year has really pushed me into the unknown and most days i just feel like i'm keeping my head above wate, especially with everything the last few months.

what do you want to do?