Friday, February 27, 2009

Ready for the summer!

I am defiantly ready for the summer. I can’t wait for the warm weather and summer Fridays at work where I actually get home by 3 pm! I also started thinking about where I will be going for vacation this year. I loved where I went last year and I hope to be as lucky this year with finding a place. My friend and I are going to start looking this weekend.

Even more proof that I’m ready?? I actually bought a bathing suit this past weekend! This is very much out of character for me. I am the type of person to only own one bathing suit and I only replace it when the one I own is slowly falling apart. The reason for this is I’m very picky when it comes to buying bathing suits. It takes forever for me to find something that I’m happy with and comfortable wearing. Imagine my surprise when I went to the mall this past weekend and found not one but TWO bathing suits that I loved.

Even though it is still months until I can start going to the beach, I just couldn’t resist. I only ended up buying one of the two bathing suits that I loved because I felt like I would be going out of control if I got two. However I am seriously considering throwing caution to the wind and getting the other one.

To bore you some more let me tell you about the suit. It’s a tankini, the only type of bathing suits I buy, with the bottoms just being plain black, but the top is super cute. It’s black with white polka dots that are reminiscent of a 1950s bathing suit. There is a little gathering by the bust and it is a halter-top but it has a kind of sweet heart neckline. I wish I could explain it better, but trust me it’s adorable. For me to be this excited about a bathing suit must mean it.

On top of that, I also bought a bunch of summer tops. I am defiantly ready for the summer!

What makes you excited about this summer?

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Verbal Diarrhea

I have been known to say some really stupid stuff out loud. Sometimes I just seem to get lost in a trance and blurt out whatever I am thinking. Most people, thankfully, just laugh it off, but it is usually very embarrassing. I’ve gotten better lately but there is still the occasional slip up.

One time at college my friend’s mom came to visit. She looked amazing and totally different since the last time I saw her. They went out to lunch but later that night my friends were sitting around talking. I started to not really pay attention but all of a sudden I heard one of them say something about a mid-life crisis. That was when I decided to pipe and say that I agree that her mom does look like she’s going through a mid-life crisis!

Then there was silence and my friends busted out laughing. They were talking about the restaurant’s d├ęcor and not her mother!! Needless to say I felt like an ass. I tried to explain that I didn’t really think she was going through a mid-life crisis but that she just looked great today. I just wanted to run away and hide from them. I’m such an ass.

Another time I had this verbal diarrhea was when I was at a family gathering. Again I started to daydream and wasn’t really listening to the conversation. After some time I decided it was time to contribute to the conversation. I heard someone mention meatloaf so I decided to announce, very loudly, that I hated to eat meatloaf. It was one of my least favorite meals.

Again there was silence followed by everyone laughing at me. They were not talking about the food but about the signer. Again I feel like an ass and really embarrassed. Luckily I didn’t say anything as bad as the one before but still. I really need to pay better attention.

It’s not just embarrassing for me but I feel bad because it’s blatantly obvious after I say these things that I was not paying attention. I really need to focus better. However that doesn’t mean this verbal diarrhea will go away. There have been plenty of other instances where I say something inappropriate and I was paying close attention.

Some if it is intentional and sometimes it’s not. It’s just something I have to either work on more or I have to get over worrying what people think about it.

Let me ask you. Have you ever said anything to someone that made you want to put your foot in your mouth?

Monday, February 23, 2009

A movie weekend

This past weekend equaled to me lying on my couch the whole time waiting to feel just a little bit better. I was sick for over a week. I kept waiting for it to pass on it’s own but the little bug decided to not leave. Saturday morning I was forced to go to one of those walk-in clinics, fork over 50 bucks (that was my co-pay!), and wait over an hour to see a freaking nurse, not even a doctor, just so I could get some anti-biotics.

It turned out to be a nasty sinus infection and by Sunday night I was finally starting to feel better. For the first time in over a week I actually slept soundly last night! Thank god for good medication.

Even though I’m almost a hundred percent I still have a really nasty sore throat. Everything feels fine, no more congestion, headache, achy body, just a sore throat that won’t quite. Now the nurse lady told me it was red from everything “dripping down” but I feel like it should be gone by now. However I have no idea what else it could be. I’m just going to cross my fingers that it goes away by the time I’m done with my medicine.

Despite being bedridden for most of the weekend, I actually had a pretty nice weekend. Friday, even though I felt like crap, I finally got around seeing “He’s just not that into you.” While I did like the movie, I felt like it was really long. I don’t know if that was because I was cranky from not feeling well or what, but I seriously felt like I was there for over 3 hours.

The rest of the weekend consisted on catching up with my shows and watching some great movies. I suggest you watch “The Secret Life of Bees” It was soo good! You should read the book first but even if you don’t, watch this movie. A definite tear-jerker.

How was your weekend? And do you have any idea why the hell my throat still hurts??

Thursday, February 19, 2009

I just wanted a little more

I got my performance review yesterday. I have been waiting for months to get this back and yesterday was the day. I was really nervous about what would happen because this was my first official review with the company. Last year I hadn’t been at the company very long so I didn’t really get a review. It was more like a 3-month check in type of thing.

It ended up being really good! I thought it would be this long review that happened but it took a total of 15 minutes to go over. I don’t want to get into the specifics but there were only a few things that I wasn’t crazy happy about. For one item, he told me would have been a higher score but he had sent in the review to HR before I started working on the one particular project that would have bumped that score up. Oh well. It was still pretty good.

Now about my raise. It was not great in my opinion, mostly because I make so little money to begin with. It ended up being about a 3.5 percent raise. He told me that he wanted to give me more but because of the way things are right now it just couldn’t happen. He also said that I was on the higher end of the spectrum with raises and a lot of people received less then me. Which made me happy. I just wish 3.5 percent didn’t equal so little in regards to dollars per hour.

I am happy to be making a little more money each week, especially since we are not allowed overtime anymore. And I am happy that my review was way better then I was expecting. I just wanted to get a little more money. I guess I should be happy that I even got a raise.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Bleh

Like the rest of the world I am sick. Except I have been sick since Saturday and I'm effing tired of it. Shouldn't this have gone away by now???? If that wasn't enough, I am crazy busy at work which makes me feel way worse. I just want it to be Friday so I can go home, take some drugs and sleep until I feel better. However it's only Wednesday and I have 2 more days left. Boo.

Oh. And to make this day better I'm about to get my review at work. Which I have been nervous about all day. Keep your fingers crossed that I get some more money!!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Friend of convenience?

You know how last week I told you about my friend who disappeared off the face of the planet?? Well that day she actually responded back to my facebook message!! Coincidence?? Anyway she told me that she wasn't ignoring, just really busy plus she lost her cell phone and didn't have my phone, and to give her a call so we can catch up. Lame.

I get being busy but it takes what 2 minutes to return a quick call? Even if she did loose her phone, I called the girl a few times so she defiantly got the number back. And if say she didn't have my cell number, she could have called my house line. The line that I've had since I was 5 and the number I know she knows by heart. Or if she didn’t remember she had my e-mail. All these ways she could have gotten back in touch and didn't.

My question to you is what do I do? Do I just forget about it can call her back? At the very least to just check in and make sure her life is okay? I've come to terms with the fact that we will never be as close as we once were but does that mean I should sever all ties???

What would you do?

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

How much is that doggy in the window?*

My best friend has been on the hunt to adopt a dog lately. That is ALL she talks about. She is constantly on pet finder looking for a dog to adopt. This past weekend we even went to the local SPCA to look at the dogs.

Here’s the thing, there are thousands of dogs that are in need of a good home. My friend however is being extremely picky about which dog she should get. I get that she wants to get a dog she will love and it’s okay to be a little picky but she is taking it to the extreme.

She wants a smallish dog that is weird looking but cute. Meaning she wants a lap dog, that doesn’t look like a normal dog that you would see on the street. She hasn’t found a lot of them, and the few that do pass her strict standards have already been adopted.

It’s been a week of searching and she is about to throw in the towel. I told her that if she was going to give up that easily then she shouldn’t get a dog, because they are a lot more work then searching the internet for hours on end.

I get where she is coming from but at the same time, I know there are so many dogs out there that are stuck in pounds and stuff because they aren’t cute enough. When we went to the SPCA I was immediately drawn to the 2 dogs that everyone else seemed to be ignoring. My heart just breaks for them. If I had a better job with hours that meant I could take care of them properly I would have totally adopted them. Unfortunately I am stuck at home and my mom is busy taking care of her own dog.

One day soon I will be able to get another dog, and you better believe I will be getting the “reject dog.” Because all dogs deserve a good home, even the ugly ones.

*If you are thinking about getting a pet, ADOPT one don't buy one!

Monday, February 9, 2009

Walking on sunshine

This past weekend was beautiful weather wise. It made me aware that spring is on its way, even though we still have a while to go. But this weekend made seem much closer. It even smelled like summer. Which I know sounds weird but summer defiantly has a distinct smell. I took my dog for a walk by the beach and he loved it just as much as me. He LOVES the sand and jumping in it. It makes him one seriously happy dog.

In other news I have off this coming Monday and to give myself a little break from work I decided to take off Friday and stretch it into a nice four-day weekend. I am very excited. It will hopefully re-energize me. I need it desperately.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Will you be my friend?

I totally failed again at blogging. Well here I am better late then never. Beware it’s a long post, but please read through because I need your help!!

I want to talk about something I feel like I’ve talked about before but when I checked back I couldn’t find the post anywhere so I hope I’m not repeating myself. Anyway.

I want to talk about making friends when you get to a certain age. In elementary school making a friend was something that occurred on a daily basis it seems. Middle school you kept those same friends and maybe a few more were added to the mix. Same goes for high school. I’ve known my best friend since I was five years old.

When you go to college, if you’re like me and go to a place where you don’t know anyone, you have to make a new set of friends all over again. At first I had no idea what to do. Then gradually I began to open up more and made wonderful friends. I was lucky.

I got along great with my roommate and we befriend 5 other girls that all lived on the same floor. For the next four years those girls would be my rock. I never had to worry about finding something to do or someone to hang out with. With them we could always find something.

After college while a lot of my friends stayed in Baltimore I went back to Jersey. I had no job lined up and even though I loved going to school in Maryland I could never see myself living there.

Back home I went, and here is where I ran into trouble. In college I lost a lot of contact with friends from high school. Either because of fights, growing apart, or I wasn’t that good of friends with them to really bother staying in touch. I came home to my best friend, somehow even with going to school 7 hours away from each other our friendship never diminished, and one other girl who lives 45 minutes away. Oh and one other girl who I used to be best friends with but who is more like an acquaintance. We have lunch with each other once in a blue moon.

Each weekend I find my options of doing stuff very limited. I only really ever have plans with my best friend and we usually meet up with some people wherever we go. It’s not like I don’t have friends. It’s just that they all live far away and planning things with them take time. I miss being able to just meet up with someone on a whim.

My question is where do I make more friends?? How do I even go about it? There are some girls that I work with that I could see myself hanging out with but again they all live in the New York so again if I wanted to hang out I would have to make a plan and travel over an hour to do so. Plus going out at night is a problem because the trains to NJ stop running at 1 am.

Also the thing is I’m not really bothered by the lack of friends I have at the moment. I’m not the type of person who has tons of friends; I’m the girl that has a few very loyal friends. And that’s okay with me. I am also the kind of girl that loves to have my alone time. I am defiantly the type of person who could go on vacation by herself and have an amazing time. In fact I have done it before.

Since I work so many hours every week by the time the weekend comes I am craving my alone time. So I can recharge my batteries so to speak. Plus I only get to see my best friend on the weekend. I really see no problem with the situation at hand.

The problem is with my mom and brother. The constantly make fun of me. Seriously, my mom who’s almost 60 and my brother who is 29 and STILL living at home make fun of me for having “no friends”. Honestly I am sick of it. When I do manage to say something back they tell me I need to relax and they are only kidding around, but they aren’t. I wouldn’t mind it so much if they did this in private, but they do this in front of other people. Especially my brother, whenever someone is over he somehow always manages to bring up the fact at how much of a loser I am because I have no friends.

I’m at a loss for words and I don’t know what to do anymore. I could try and make more friends but really that would mean hanging out with people I didn’t like from high school, or I need to find some way to shut him up. I know he never will though, because this is all he has on me to make fun of.

My brother is 29, living at home, and is a teacher’s aid barely making any money. He’s a mooch off my mother and instead of going back to school so he can become a proper teacher, he decides to play video games. Really he is just a sad man who constantly tries to relive his high school days instead of growing up. The only reason he has the job that he has now is a friend who got him the job. Before that he was unemployed for TWO years.

What do I do? I can keep ignoring it, but what really bothers me is when he does this in front of others. How do I get it to stop??? And maybe I do need more friends, so I could use some tips there as well.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

MIA

Sorry that I have been MIA. I feel like the whole blog world has been MIA lately. It must be one of those things I guess. Work has been really busy, plus I couldn’t really think of anything to say on here. Even though this is my personal space on the internet to write whatever, I don’t want to constantly bore you with the mundane details of my life. I find myself wishing my life was more exciting, so I would have better stuff to blog about. Sadly, even though I am determined to make this year better then last, 2009 have been pretty boring.

Also I feel like January flew by! I cannot believe that it is already February. I’m glad though, because I am defiantly ready for warmer weather. Last night we got a bunch of snow and my commute home was no fun. I was THIS close to calling out of work today. I told myself that if my train was delayed I would just go back home and play hooky. Sadly, and very surprisingly, the trains were running on time. Oh well.

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I’m still here and will post a real blog hopefully tomorrow!