Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Blogs: my new form of people watching…

So finally, my sunburn is going away. Now I am so itchy and it is driving me crazy!! But hopefully that will go away soon and I can restart my tanning and get nice and brown before my vacation. It is fast approaching and I just can’t contain myself. 2 weeks from Saturday I will be on my way to Los Cabos, Mexico!! And the next couple of weeks will hopefully keep me busy and the time will just fly by. Well during work, it has been pretty dead and I just spend my day surfing the Internet. Which can be fun, but seriously if I check my e-mail one more time I will kill myself. I am keeping myself busy lurking at other people’s blogs and reading about their lives. I have always been completely fascinated with other people. I love finding out who a person is, and what their life is all about. Even what some people find mundane, I find interesting. I love listening to people. When I go out sometimes my favorite thing is to people watch. I can pretty much sum a person up within the first 30 seconds of meeting them and I’ve rarely changed my first initial impression. From all this people watching, I’ve learned how to read people. I look at their facial expression, read their body language and just listen to them. From this I can automatically tell whether or not we will get along.

This is much harder for me to do when I read a person’s blog. All I have is words, and sometime maybe even a picture to go by. For One: pictures can be deceiving and Two: its very hard to read emotions. Reading these people’s blogs, it’s almost impossible to tell what they are really like in person. Maybe that’s what makes it so intriguing to me. When I write, I can make a whole new persona of myself if I wanted to. What’s not to say that these people are doing the exact same thing? Who knows if what I read is real, or if that person just wants people to perceive them as what they write? For example, there is one blog that I read (no names mentioned of course) that they seem to be so happy and their entire life is pulled together. Who ever really truly feels that way? That their whole like is exactly how they want it to be? Maybe that’s me being cynical (and believe me I am) but that’s just not realistic. And then there are blogs out there where people describe their sex adventures. And again I have to wonder, are their sexcapades real, or just what they wish their real life were all about? I mean some of these people have almost every single entry they have is about one of their newest conquests? I’m a single 23-year-old girl and believe me when I tell you, finding a guy is hard enough. And here these people are meeting and bedding guys all the time? I find that hard to believe. Which makes me wonder whether they are a) just a whore or b) someone I need to become friends with fast to learn how to pick up guys as fast as they do. Not necessarily for me to sleep with cause I’m not really like that, but having good tips never hurts. But again, I am skeptical at how truthful all this is.

I look at my blog as a sort of diary, but I just type it cause its easy and I have loads of free time at work. And don’t get me wrong there are many other out there just like me, but what about these people who just have a niche thing they write about? How true are they? Don’t get me wrong, whether they are true or not I will still continue reading. Entertainment is entertainment. But I will always be thinking the same thing? Who are these people in reality????

Monday, April 28, 2008

What did you do this weekend?

So this past weekend was really nice. I did a lot of shopping on Saturday; I had to get a dress for a wedding and also a bathing suit for my upcoming vacation. But not only did I get those, I bought crap load of other stuff! I went to town on Saturday and it was so much fun. I got a lot of clothes for the summer so I won’t melt and also, one lady was very nice to me and gave me a coupon to take $50 dollars off my entire order. That made my day soo much better. The only thing I needed was to get shorts. And I know what your thinking: shorts are one of the most unflattering item of clothing ever invented and I do agree with you. Except I am totally obsessed with walking shorts. They are much more flattering that other shorts cause they fall at the knee, not ending at a random spot near your thigh to make it look huge, and they are slim, making you leg appear slim not huge like some other shorts out there. But unfortunately I could not find one decent pair of shorts anywhere! All of them were either too long, or short and almost all of them were unbelievably wide. Which is upsetting cause I want to not sweat all summer in jeans but at the same time I don’t want to look bigger than I already am. So that was frustrating, but I didn’t let it ruin my day.

Also on Saturday I went tanning. I know it’s really bad for you, but I am going on vacation in like 3 weeks and if I don’t have a base I will become a lobster and won’t be able to go out in the sun for the whole trip. So instead I bought 6 tanning sessions to get myself ready. When I got there, they lady actually took a Laser fingerprint of me, and that’s how I check in every time now. I couldn’t believe that a tanning salon has this kind of technology. I guess it makes sense to do it in order to protect someone from using my sessions, but couldn’t they have taken my picture or something?? Oh well, I told my mom that if something were to happen to me, she could always get my fingerprint from the tanning salon. Anyway since it was my first time tanning I knew I was going to get a little burned. So I went in for 10 minutes and when I went home it didn’t even look like I got color. WELL, come next morning and I am a lobster. My back is fire engine red, my face a tomato, and my stomach looks like a flamingo. I am in so much pain, that it hurts to sleep. If anyone has ever been tanning, you know that a tanning bed burn is a different kind of pain than if you were just in the sun. So I am in pain, and everyone at my job is making fun of me. All in good fun, but seriously every time I sit or stand I want to cry. I know that it is better to get burned now than when I’m on vacation, but I forgot just how painful this could be. And like the idiot that I am, I will be going tanning again as soon as this burn goes away. Ahh the sacrifices I make for my happiness.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

I love it, love it, love it!!!

So I took the second part of my makeup class and it was AMAZING. I never had so much fun! It was more advanced than the first part and I learned so much more about makeup and how to make a person really look beautiful. You’d be surprised at how intricate makeup is. It really is an art form. I mean take my teacher, she creates art with each person she does. She can make a person’s eye appear bigger, some who has a fuller face seem svelte, and make a long and skinny face have more width and definition. I was just amazed at all she can do.

The good thing about the class was I seem to have a natural talent for it. The teacher complemented me constantly, which was amazing to hear. She never really critiqued anything I did, while with the other people in the class; she would tear some of their stuff apart. This made me feel confident and that this is really something that I can pursue. Now all I need to do is practice, practice, practice. That is the most important thing. I mean I could take more classes, but there is a point where you have to stop researching and start actually doing. Now I just need to figure out a way to practice on people other than my mother. She’s been a good sport and all but I need to work on different faces in order to develop my self. And since most of my friends are out of state, I need to find another avenue. I have a couple of ideas on how to go about it, but as I’ve said before I am not rushing into this thing. I am going to take it slowly and hopefully find a way to practice during the weekend when I’m not at work.

Friday, April 18, 2008

“Wendy, fiery redhead…”

So yesterday was a completely horrible day for me. It was the one of the worst, if not the worst, working day of my life. There was so much work for me to do that I didn’t even know where to start. I was so overwhelmed, and it didn’t help me that my boss kept of checking in with me to see if I had X Y and Z done yet. I almost got up and left it was so bad. I won’t bore you with the details, because believe me they are boring. But then at the end of the day I had to put into numerological order 250 newspapers. And when I say in numerological order, I don’t mean 1, 2, 3… I mean numbers that are 6 digits long and written very smalls so its hard to see the correct number sometimes. Needless to say it took me over 2 hours to finish, and my hands were completely black with ink. AWESOME. By the time I got home at 8:45 pm, I wanted to kill myself.

But after I took a shower and had dinner I was starting to feel a little better. But than I decided to watch the office, I usually tape it and watch it on the weekend, but this was an emergency. And I have to say that it completely turned my day around. It was so funny, as it always is, but not only that it made me happy that I don’t have a boss like Michael Scott. Even though I don’t like what I actually do, I do like the people I work with. Which helps make the week go by much faster. And if anyone doesn’t watch the show, I suggest you go out and rent the DVD’s and catch up on one of the best shows on television. It will definitely help you feel better about your job!

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Attending church on a Tuesday

On Tuesday my twin cousins made their confirmation. And I was so happy that they asked me to be their sponsor. I was worried that I would have to pick which one I wanted to sponsor, but I was allowed to be both of theirs. I was the only person there that had two kids to sponsor, and I may have been the first person there to ever do this! I felt very special to have this honor of being a double sponsor. Of course it took awhile for me to figure out how to do that, i.e. where do I sit, who do I walk up with first, do I just stay up there and wait for the other one to come? But all was figured out. The twins sat next to each other, and I was placed in the middle so when we walked up and I did one and then the next one directly after. It turned out to be a very lovely day. It was a long ceremony but my cousins are now very happy that they never again have to go to CCD. And even though I am not the greatest catholic, (I kinda suck at it) it was nice to do this for them. Afterwards my aunt made a fantastic dinner and I drove around the block on motor scooters with my cousins. Which is so much fun! At first I was riding in the back of one of my girls driving, but that was way to scary so they let me use one to myself! And I defiantly suggest that anyone reading this to try this! It is so much fun and defiantly takes you back to when you were young and carefree about the world!

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

You have such wonderful cheek bones

This past weekend was completely crazy for me. I have been non-stop and am just now able to write a post. So as I mentioned earlier I told you that I was going to take a makeup class. Well this past Sunday and Monday I completed the first section of the class. And I have to say that IT WAS AMAZING. I never had so much fun. It was a long day, but it flew by that I didn’t even realize. Also I didn’t even mind the commute, which usually always bothers me. I learned a lot, but I defiantly need to practice and I looked forward to this weekend so I can learn more about everything. I still don’t really know how to start getting my name out there, and I need to learn about makeup that you do for people who are getting their picture taken. But all that should be covered this weekend.

The teacher was also really fun and taught very well. I didn’t feel overwhelmed or anything like that. Even when I had to start doing the makeup she walked me through everything and really helped me out. I also think that she took a liking to me, which is always good. That way, after this is over I can hopefully stay in contact with her and have her help me with networking and starting to get work. I will defiantly go into more detail about this whole thing after I am done with the next class. That way I can give you the whole picture of what is was like!

Saturday, April 12, 2008

What a dog I have!

I wasn’t planning on writing again until after I take my class tomorrow. But than something happened and I couldn’t help writing. I have a dog name Sammy and he is about 2. Today he peed on my bed!!! Not while I was in it, but he peed in my bed while I was out. Mind you, my dog is trained to go to the bathroom outside and never goes inside the house anyone. That is until today when he PEED in my bed! I was sooo pissed at my dog, I almost killed him. But after a while I couldn’t stay mad at him anymore. He is just so cute and he slowly crept toward my with his most precious face and I just melted. So the sucker that I am, I forgave my puppy. Than I was telling my friend what happened and she told me that maybe he was feeling neglected by me since I am never home anymore. And that I felt guilty! I am seriously a sucker. But that could be true, I mean I leave my house everyday at 7:30 am and don’t get home til after 8:30 pm. So that could be true. But than again he still has my mom and my brother to cuddle with before I get home. Yes they both work too, but they get home hours before I do. Well either way, my puppy did pee on my bed. Thankfully, it was just the sheets and it didn’t touch the mattress. Also I thought you might want to see my puppy so I took a few pictures to share. Enjoy!

Thursday, April 10, 2008

I can feel summer on its way.

It’s been really busy at work, which is a good thing for me. It makes the days go by much more quickly and there isn’t really any time for me to wallow in my own self-pity. Which is always a good thing. In particular this week has flown by. And next week I will only be at work for 2 days! Basically making the month of April fly by for me! Soon it will be May and the summer will ensue. I am a summer baby and I absolutely love the summer. In particular I love the beach! I love everything about the beach, the hot sand that burns your feet, the salty water, even the smell. That salty coconut smell that you can only experience at the beach. I cannot wait for the summer, and even more I cannot wait for my vacation to los Cabos in 5 weeks!!

P.S. – I have finally made myself excited about my vacation again!

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Nervousness tends to ruin my excitement

So in just a few days I will be taking my first makeup class. I am so excited about this I don’t even know where to begin. Even though I am so excited, I’ve had this nervous feeling for the past few days. At first I couldn’t pin point the feeling or why it was happening. Than I realized that it was because of this class I am taking. I am NERVOUS about taking this class. Every night I go to bed in a panic about it. Thoughts run through my head constantly…. Are you CRAZY!?!? Why are you taking a class like this?? You never going to make any money so why are you bothering? What if you suck and then your out X amount of dollars? Even if you are good, that doesn’t mean your going to find steady work. Even if you do find work, that doesn’t guarantee that you’ll even like it. What if I quit my job and get stuck working in a mall, chasing people down to try a GREAT NEW PRODUCT????

Sadly that little stream of my thought process isn’t even the half of it. And I get that it’s normal to be nervous. But I think I am more nervous about taking this class and learning that it isn’t for me. Then I am back at square one again. I can’t let myself get carried away about this; I mean I haven’t even taken the class yet!!

Monday, April 7, 2008

Just another manic Monday, I wish it was Sunday…

This past weekend turned out to be pretty nice. I didn’t get to sleep as much as I had hoped for, but I got enough so I really can’t complain. Saturday turned out to be absolutely gorgeous and I enjoyed spending a lot of it outside. I did a little shopping at an outdoor shopping mall and had lunch at a great place outside near the beach. I also got a haircut and while that may not sound exciting to some, to me it’s total bliss. Getting my hair done is one of my favorite things to do. I love the atmosphere and being pampered. And while I didn’t do anything drastic to my hair, it was still nice to go and feel beautiful.

I also got to catch up with some friends on Saturday which is nice, except every time I go out it is like a high school reunion. We always go to the same bars, where everyone who I went to high school with is also there. Don’t get me wrong, sometimes it’s nice to catch up but a lot of these people I wasn’t friends with back then, who come up to me now acting as though I am their best friend. It gets tiring after a while and you always see the same people. I need to find a place where I can meet new people and mix things up a bit.

Sunday was a good lazy day. I watched cheesy chick flicks and did some spring-cleaning. Which again is not that exciting, sometimes doing things like that is nice and helps cleanse the mind. Cuddling up on the couch and watching movies was the perfect way for me to end my weekend.

Friday, April 4, 2008

It’s Friday night! Just got paid….

It’s FRIDAY!!!! WOOOOHOOOOOO!!! I felt like this week was never going to end. Even today has been dragging on and on and on. But soon (as in 5 hours) I will get leave and hopefully sleep for the entire weekend. I know, I’m so boring but I really need the rest. Me and sleep haven’t been getting along lately, but I’m hoping this weekend we can reconnect our once blissful relationship.

Beside the fire, nothing really exciting happened to me this week. I’ve been really busy at work. Which is good I guess, but it’s also really starting to piss me off. I work with a team of people, and I have more work than all of them combined!!! It should be the other way around, because I’m still relatively new and some of these other people have been here for a few years. But my boss keeps on giving me more and more work. Yes, I know that this shows that I’m a good employee and he trusts me to get it done blah blah blah. It angers me though that my fellow employees do not do their job well that I in return get punished for their problems. There is this one girl in particular that I just know (hope) will get fired soon. My boss hasn’t given her any work in the past month! When I ask him why, he tells me that she is way to busy to complete it. I gently remind him that I have triple the work than her, and all he says is “I know… but I also know that you can handle it and get it done” Which is a really nice complement, but COME ON! All I want to do is quit this job, and my boss giving me more work than everyone else does not help the situation. I swear her just gave me 4 more jobs this morning and the other girl nothing!

I should maybe break down my job a little. I am a media assistant and basically my job is to place ads in newspapers across the country. Each order I get to place ads by different client is called a job and in each job the ads I will be placing are called an insertion orders (IO). So from now on when I talk about my job, I can just use these terms. So when I say that in the next two weeks I have 500 insertion orders, you will know what I mean. P.S. that girl I told you about only have 68 for the next two weeks! So you can see how inundated I am right now with work. But there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and hopefully things will start changing for my career and me soon!

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Vacation all I ever wanted…

Okay I know this is going to sound childish and lame, but I really need to rant right now.

Let me start at the beginning, my best friend is graduating from college in May with her masters. So for about a year, we have been trying to plan a vacation together before she moves to Boston to do an internship. Finally, my mom was generous enough to let me use her timeshare. So we exchanged the week and we are now going to Los Cabos, Mexico in May. It was going to be her and me, plus two other people. The two other people she met at school, but I have become pretty good friends with them through the years. Anyway, there is this other friend of hers who invited her to go on a cruise with him and his friends in June. She declined because of our trip, but for some reason invited him to come along with us instead. Now this is where I get angry. The fact that she just invited this person to come along on vacation without asking me or anyone else for that matter if we minded he comes. Also, she didn’t even tell me that she invited him, I had to find out through effing Facebook! If it was anyone else I probably wouldn’t have minded, but I don’t really like this kid. And I call him a kid, because that’s how he acts. When he drinks he is so annoying and acts like he’s 16 and drinking alcohol for the first time. Have I mentioned that were we are going is all-inclusive? So I am worried that he is going to be a complete asshole the entire trip. Also, he so desperately wants to have a girlfriend that he basically attacks anything with a vagina. Some people find his behavior, the drinking and going after girls, endearing. I find it repulsive.

Anyway, when I voiced my concern over this, I was basically attacked and called a bitch. But I don’t think I am wrong. What was wrong was inviting him, without even asking if I was cool with it. So then my friend was like fine, it’s your timeshare so I will just tell him you said no. But I didn’t want it to be like that. I wanted this to be a group decision where everyone has a say in the situation. Than I felt super guilty about the whole situation. I told her, that if everyone else wants him to come, than fine, I’m not going to be the one who upsets everyone else. Of course, I am the only one who didn’t want him coming, which really made me look like an asshole.
Finally today I find out, through Facebook again, that he is defiantly coming. And now I am no longer excited about this trip. I need to find someway to get excited again. I don’t want this kid to ruin my whole trip. I also need to find away to get this person to behave in a way that won’t piss me off the whole trip. I can’t just ignore him; it will just make the whole situation awkward. Basically, I need to come to terms with everything, and find balance.

That was my rant. I apologize for sounding like an annoying high school girl, but I had to get this off my chest.

P.S. I might do some major retail therapy this weekend, to help me feel better!

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

One step at a time…

So after much deliberation with myself I decided to take a makeup class. I did research on it and found a really reputable makeup artist who works for magazines, does photo shoots for famous celebrity and also does product testing for a lot of companies. I met with her yesterday to see her studio and her portfolio to see if she was actually legit. It was a really nice place, very close to my job, and her portfolio was amazing! She even showed me pictures of her with Kevin Bacon! Needless to say I was hooked. Also the price wasn't too outrageous, some of the classes I looked up were upwards of 4 to 6 thousand dollars, this one was below 700! And it's only a 2 day class. I figure it's the perfect way to get a taste of it and see if it's something I am truly interested it. But the biggest reason why I decided to do this was because I didn't want to be 80 looking back at my life and regretting the fact that I never at least tried. Cause I just know it would be something that would haunt me! And don't get me wrong; I'm not going to be an idiot about this. I have no plans of taking this class, deciding I'm gonna rock at it and quit my job for bigger and better things. If this is something I truly like, I will work into it slowly. Something along the lines of working during the weekend and seeing where it eventually takes me. The class is in about 2 weeks, April 13th and 14th and I will let you know how it goes!

P.S. – I am also going to start looking into schools that offer degrees in social working! Yes I am still concerned about student loans, but I figured I already have a lot and since I'll be paying for the next 15 years, I may as well tack on some more!

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Does anyone have any marshmallows?

So today there was a fire in my building. It was an electrical fire on the 4th floor and I was way up on the 12th floor. And I have to say it was defiantly scary walking down those 12 flights to the bottom floor, smelling smoke and seeing firefighters going up the steps with axes in their hands. By the time I was outside, my adrenaline was so high that my legs were shaking uncontrollably. Seriously I wasn’t scared, but for some reason my damn legs were out of control. Just standing still it looked like I was going into a seizure, my whole body shook as a result of my legs! Although I should say right off that I do suffer from anxiety, and while it is under control most of the time when something like this happens it always seems to have much more of an effect on me than anyone else. I mean there were hundreds of people outside all talking, laughing, and taking pictures near the fire trucks, and there I was not being able to stand still cause I didn’t want anyone to notice my legs!

Well anyway we were outside a good 2 hours, but I was really hoping to have my boss just say, it’s okay go on home for the day. Especially since it took me over 2 hours to get home last night because of the damn train, which means I didn’t get home until 9:15. A nice little half-day would have been really nice. But nevertheless here I am back in my office, counting down the hours til I get to leave. And mind you, I don’t get to leave until 7, so that means I still have about 6 hours to go! Oh well, at least I was able to post a little blog!