Wednesday, April 30, 2008
This is much harder for me to do when I read a person’s blog. All I have is words, and sometime maybe even a picture to go by. For One: pictures can be deceiving and Two: its very hard to read emotions. Reading these people’s blogs, it’s almost impossible to tell what they are really like in person. Maybe that’s what makes it so intriguing to me. When I write, I can make a whole new persona of myself if I wanted to. What’s not to say that these people are doing the exact same thing? Who knows if what I read is real, or if that person just wants people to perceive them as what they write? For example, there is one blog that I read (no names mentioned of course) that they seem to be so happy and their entire life is pulled together. Who ever really truly feels that way? That their whole like is exactly how they want it to be? Maybe that’s me being cynical (and believe me I am) but that’s just not realistic. And then there are blogs out there where people describe their sex adventures. And again I have to wonder, are their sexcapades real, or just what they wish their real life were all about? I mean some of these people have almost every single entry they have is about one of their newest conquests? I’m a single 23-year-old girl and believe me when I tell you, finding a guy is hard enough. And here these people are meeting and bedding guys all the time? I find that hard to believe. Which makes me wonder whether they are a) just a whore or b) someone I need to become friends with fast to learn how to pick up guys as fast as they do. Not necessarily for me to sleep with cause I’m not really like that, but having good tips never hurts. But again, I am skeptical at how truthful all this is.
I look at my blog as a sort of diary, but I just type it cause its easy and I have loads of free time at work. And don’t get me wrong there are many other out there just like me, but what about these people who just have a niche thing they write about? How true are they? Don’t get me wrong, whether they are true or not I will still continue reading. Entertainment is entertainment. But I will always be thinking the same thing? Who are these people in reality????
Monday, April 28, 2008
Also on Saturday I went tanning. I know it’s really bad for you, but I am going on vacation in like 3 weeks and if I don’t have a base I will become a lobster and won’t be able to go out in the sun for the whole trip. So instead I bought 6 tanning sessions to get myself ready. When I got there, they lady actually took a Laser fingerprint of me, and that’s how I check in every time now. I couldn’t believe that a tanning salon has this kind of technology. I guess it makes sense to do it in order to protect someone from using my sessions, but couldn’t they have taken my picture or something?? Oh well, I told my mom that if something were to happen to me, she could always get my fingerprint from the tanning salon. Anyway since it was my first time tanning I knew I was going to get a little burned. So I went in for 10 minutes and when I went home it didn’t even look like I got color. WELL, come next morning and I am a lobster. My back is fire engine red, my face a tomato, and my stomach looks like a flamingo. I am in so much pain, that it hurts to sleep. If anyone has ever been tanning, you know that a tanning bed burn is a different kind of pain than if you were just in the sun. So I am in pain, and everyone at my job is making fun of me. All in good fun, but seriously every time I sit or stand I want to cry. I know that it is better to get burned now than when I’m on vacation, but I forgot just how painful this could be. And like the idiot that I am, I will be going tanning again as soon as this burn goes away. Ahh the sacrifices I make for my happiness.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
The good thing about the class was I seem to have a natural talent for it. The teacher complemented me constantly, which was amazing to hear. She never really critiqued anything I did, while with the other people in the class; she would tear some of their stuff apart. This made me feel confident and that this is really something that I can pursue. Now all I need to do is practice, practice, practice. That is the most important thing. I mean I could take more classes, but there is a point where you have to stop researching and start actually doing. Now I just need to figure out a way to practice on people other than my mother. She’s been a good sport and all but I need to work on different faces in order to develop my self. And since most of my friends are out of state, I need to find another avenue. I have a couple of ideas on how to go about it, but as I’ve said before I am not rushing into this thing. I am going to take it slowly and hopefully find a way to practice during the weekend when I’m not at work.
Friday, April 18, 2008
But after I took a shower and had dinner I was starting to feel a little better. But than I decided to watch the office, I usually tape it and watch it on the weekend, but this was an emergency. And I have to say that it completely turned my day around. It was so funny, as it always is, but not only that it made me happy that I don’t have a boss like Michael Scott. Even though I don’t like what I actually do, I do like the people I work with. Which helps make the week go by much faster. And if anyone doesn’t watch the show, I suggest you go out and rent the DVD’s and catch up on one of the best shows on television. It will definitely help you feel better about your job!
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
The teacher was also really fun and taught very well. I didn’t feel overwhelmed or anything like that. Even when I had to start doing the makeup she walked me through everything and really helped me out. I also think that she took a liking to me, which is always good. That way, after this is over I can hopefully stay in contact with her and have her help me with networking and starting to get work. I will defiantly go into more detail about this whole thing after I am done with the next class. That way I can give you the whole picture of what is was like!
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Thursday, April 10, 2008
P.S. – I have finally made myself excited about my vacation again!
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Sadly that little stream of my thought process isn’t even the half of it. And I get that it’s normal to be nervous. But I think I am more nervous about taking this class and learning that it isn’t for me. Then I am back at square one again. I can’t let myself get carried away about this; I mean I haven’t even taken the class yet!!
Monday, April 7, 2008
This past weekend turned out to be pretty nice. I didn’t get to sleep as much as I had hoped for, but I got enough so I really can’t complain. Saturday turned out to be absolutely gorgeous and I enjoyed spending a lot of it outside. I did a little shopping at an outdoor shopping mall and had lunch at a great place outside near the beach. I also got a haircut and while that may not sound exciting to some, to me it’s total bliss. Getting my hair done is one of my favorite things to do. I love the atmosphere and being pampered. And while I didn’t do anything drastic to my hair, it was still nice to go and feel beautiful.
I also got to catch up with some friends on Saturday which is nice, except every time I go out it is like a high school reunion. We always go to the same bars, where everyone who I went to high school with is also there. Don’t get me wrong, sometimes it’s nice to catch up but a lot of these people I wasn’t friends with back then, who come up to me now acting as though I am their best friend. It gets tiring after a while and you always see the same people. I need to find a place where I can meet new people and mix things up a bit.
Sunday was a good lazy day. I watched cheesy chick flicks and did some spring-cleaning. Which again is not that exciting, sometimes doing things like that is nice and helps cleanse the mind. Cuddling up on the couch and watching movies was the perfect way for me to end my weekend.
Friday, April 4, 2008
Beside the fire, nothing really exciting happened to me this week. I’ve been really busy at work. Which is good I guess, but it’s also really starting to piss me off. I work with a team of people, and I have more work than all of them combined!!! It should be the other way around, because I’m still relatively new and some of these other people have been here for a few years. But my boss keeps on giving me more and more work. Yes, I know that this shows that I’m a good employee and he trusts me to get it done blah blah blah. It angers me though that my fellow employees do not do their job well that I in return get punished for their problems. There is this one girl in particular that I just know (hope) will get fired soon. My boss hasn’t given her any work in the past month! When I ask him why, he tells me that she is way to busy to complete it. I gently remind him that I have triple the work than her, and all he says is “I know… but I also know that you can handle it and get it done” Which is a really nice complement, but COME ON! All I want to do is quit this job, and my boss giving me more work than everyone else does not help the situation. I swear her just gave me 4 more jobs this morning and the other girl nothing!
I should maybe break down my job a little. I am a media assistant and basically my job is to place ads in newspapers across the country. Each order I get to place ads by different client is called a job and in each job the ads I will be placing are called an insertion orders (IO). So from now on when I talk about my job, I can just use these terms. So when I say that in the next two weeks I have 500 insertion orders, you will know what I mean. P.S. that girl I told you about only have 68 for the next two weeks! So you can see how inundated I am right now with work. But there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and hopefully things will start changing for my career and me soon!
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Let me start at the beginning, my best friend is graduating from college in May with her masters. So for about a year, we have been trying to plan a vacation together before she moves to Boston to do an internship. Finally, my mom was generous enough to let me use her timeshare. So we exchanged the week and we are now going to Los Cabos, Mexico in May. It was going to be her and me, plus two other people. The two other people she met at school, but I have become pretty good friends with them through the years. Anyway, there is this other friend of hers who invited her to go on a cruise with him and his friends in June. She declined because of our trip, but for some reason invited him to come along with us instead. Now this is where I get angry. The fact that she just invited this person to come along on vacation without asking me or anyone else for that matter if we minded he comes. Also, she didn’t even tell me that she invited him, I had to find out through effing Facebook! If it was anyone else I probably wouldn’t have minded, but I don’t really like this kid. And I call him a kid, because that’s how he acts. When he drinks he is so annoying and acts like he’s 16 and drinking alcohol for the first time. Have I mentioned that were we are going is all-inclusive? So I am worried that he is going to be a complete asshole the entire trip. Also, he so desperately wants to have a girlfriend that he basically attacks anything with a vagina. Some people find his behavior, the drinking and going after girls, endearing. I find it repulsive.
Anyway, when I voiced my concern over this, I was basically attacked and called a bitch. But I don’t think I am wrong. What was wrong was inviting him, without even asking if I was cool with it. So then my friend was like fine, it’s your timeshare so I will just tell him you said no. But I didn’t want it to be like that. I wanted this to be a group decision where everyone has a say in the situation. Than I felt super guilty about the whole situation. I told her, that if everyone else wants him to come, than fine, I’m not going to be the one who upsets everyone else. Of course, I am the only one who didn’t want him coming, which really made me look like an asshole.
Finally today I find out, through Facebook again, that he is defiantly coming. And now I am no longer excited about this trip. I need to find someway to get excited again. I don’t want this kid to ruin my whole trip. I also need to find away to get this person to behave in a way that won’t piss me off the whole trip. I can’t just ignore him; it will just make the whole situation awkward. Basically, I need to come to terms with everything, and find balance.
That was my rant. I apologize for sounding like an annoying high school girl, but I had to get this off my chest.
P.S. I might do some major retail therapy this weekend, to help me feel better!
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
P.S. – I am also going to start looking into schools that offer degrees in social working! Yes I am still concerned about student loans, but I figured I already have a lot and since I'll be paying for the next 15 years, I may as well tack on some more!
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Well anyway we were outside a good 2 hours, but I was really hoping to have my boss just say, it’s okay go on home for the day. Especially since it took me over 2 hours to get home last night because of the damn train, which means I didn’t get home until 9:15. A nice little half-day would have been really nice. But nevertheless here I am back in my office, counting down the hours til I get to leave. And mind you, I don’t get to leave until 7, so that means I still have about 6 hours to go! Oh well, at least I was able to post a little blog!