Before I start my official blog, I just have to make a note of how addicting this thing already is. It took all of my willpower to NOT make a post this past weekend. All I kept on thinking was my next post! It’s lame I know, but it just struck as so funny. I used to hate writing in a journal and there I was waiting for Monday to happen so I can make a post!! Anyway I digress.
I left my last post last time promising to deconstruct each of the careers that have been really peaking my interest. Let me first start with teaching cause that’s the easiest. I’m actually not that interested in becoming a teacher, but I seem to have a natural ability to teach and I can handle children really well (read: I have a lot of patience). I used to teach swim lessons and most of the parents would come up to me and ask if I was going to become an actual teacher. I would always laugh because that had never interested me. Well the other day, my mom told me that I should really consider becoming a teacher. Which is really weird because when I went to college my mom told me that I was not allowed to major in education because it was a copout. Now here she is telling me that I should go for it. But even though I seem to have this ability, I’m still not that interested in teaching. But than I think, maybe if I’m good at it I will eventually enjoy doing it. So I don’t know. But for now I view it as more as a last option, if nothing else works out.
Now becoming a makeup artist is my career of the moment right now. Ever since I was a kid, I loved makeup. Which is strange because my mom hates makeup and I only have bothers, but nonetheless I was hooked. I have an entire drawer dedicated to my makeup. And I love it when my friends let me do their makeup. I think that this is something that can truly make me happy. However I’m scared. I’m scared of not being any good at it, or if I am good, not getting any jobs to support myself. I don’t want to be working in Macy’s behind a counter, I want to do photo shoots or work at a magazine or at a cosmetics company. But what if that doesn’t happen? I’m also scared of not making any money. I don’t want to be the person who went to college, ditched all that to become a makeup artist, is not making any money and has to live at home for the rest of her life. I’m also scared that I will loose interest. I mean that seems to be happening a lot lately to me. In college I was going to be a speech pathologist and I lost interest in that, and then I majored in mass communication and I don’t really have any interest in that anymore. What if that happens again? And than where am I?? Finally what I’m most afraid of is people looking down at me. But that’s just my ego talking. But the people who I’ve told this to so far have said the same thing to me, “so basically you went to college for no reason.” Which really pisses me off, cause I have a diploma and no one can take that away from me, even if I just become a makeup artist. And plus college itself is more about (to me anyway) the experiences and the growth that happens while you there. It’s a big stepping-stone into the real world. I just don’t want everyone to look down at me, because I am choosing to do this now.
As for the other ones, photography and being a social worker both requires me to go back to school. And not only that, pay a lot more money. For photography it’s one of those things that I am interested in every other day. I don’t think my heart is in it enough to actually go through with it. Becoming a social worker is another thing that I am constantly changing my mind about. But I love helping people; it’s in my nature. So I think eventually I might do this, but for now it’s not the right time.
As for being a travel writer, I enjoy writing (even though I’m not the greatest at it) and I love to travel. I studied abroad in London and I got to travel a lot while being there. And it was the happiest time in my live when I was abroad. I loved it, seeing new places, meeting new people, and seeing people’s cultures up close and personal. I was so happy being there that I actually lost 40 pounds! But it’s really hard to get into that business. You have to be well established as a writer before you can even consider getting to do that. And also I think it have to do more with the traveling, I want to be able to travel, not necessarily have to write about it. Which is why being a makeup artist is so appealing to me. If I get to be successful and make enough money, I can choose my own hours and get to travel and see the world on my own time. Also, if I were to do photo shoots and stuff I would also get to travel that way.
So to wrap up, being a makeup seems to be my dream right now. I just have to get the confidence to go after it. And I know that like 2 people read this, but I would love some feedback!!