I love it, love it, love it!!!

So I took the second part of my makeup class and it was AMAZING. I never had so much fun! It was more advanced than the first part and I learned so much more about makeup and how to make a person really look beautiful. You’d be surprised at how intricate makeup is. It really is an art form. I mean take my teacher, she creates art with each person she does. She can make a person’s eye appear bigger, some who has a fuller face seem svelte, and make a long and skinny face have more width and definition. I was just amazed at all she can do.

The good thing about the class was I seem to have a natural talent for it. The teacher complemented me constantly, which was amazing to hear. She never really critiqued anything I did, while with the other people in the class; she would tear some of their stuff apart. This made me feel confident and that this is really something that I can pursue. Now all I need to do is practice, practice, practice. That is the most important thing. I mean I could take more classes, but there is a point where you have to stop researching and start actually doing. Now I just need to figure out a way to practice on people other than my mother. She’s been a good sport and all but I need to work on different faces in order to develop my self. And since most of my friends are out of state, I need to find another avenue. I have a couple of ideas on how to go about it, but as I’ve said before I am not rushing into this thing. I am going to take it slowly and hopefully find a way to practice during the weekend when I’m not at work.

You have such wonderful cheek bones

This past weekend was completely crazy for me. I have been non-stop and am just now able to write a post. So as I mentioned earlier I told you that I was going to take a makeup class. Well this past Sunday and Monday I completed the first section of the class. And I have to say that IT WAS AMAZING. I never had so much fun. It was a long day, but it flew by that I didn’t even realize. Also I didn’t even mind the commute, which usually always bothers me. I learned a lot, but I defiantly need to practice and I looked forward to this weekend so I can learn more about everything. I still don’t really know how to start getting my name out there, and I need to learn about makeup that you do for people who are getting their picture taken. But all that should be covered this weekend.

The teacher was also really fun and taught very well. I didn’t feel overwhelmed or anything like that. Even when I had to start doing the makeup she walked me through everything and really helped me out. I also think that she took a liking to me, which is always good. That way, after this is over I can hopefully stay in contact with her and have her help me with networking and starting to get work. I will defiantly go into more detail about this whole thing after I am done with the next class. That way I can give you the whole picture of what is was like!

Nervousness tends to ruin my excitement

So in just a few days I will be taking my first makeup class. I am so excited about this I don’t even know where to begin. Even though I am so excited, I’ve had this nervous feeling for the past few days. At first I couldn’t pin point the feeling or why it was happening. Than I realized that it was because of this class I am taking. I am NERVOUS about taking this class. Every night I go to bed in a panic about it. Thoughts run through my head constantly…. Are you CRAZY!?!? Why are you taking a class like this?? You never going to make any money so why are you bothering? What if you suck and then your out X amount of dollars? Even if you are good, that doesn’t mean your going to find steady work. Even if you do find work, that doesn’t guarantee that you’ll even like it. What if I quit my job and get stuck working in a mall, chasing people down to try a GREAT NEW PRODUCT????

Sadly that little stream of my thought process isn’t even the half of it. And I get that it’s normal to be nervous. But I think I am more nervous about taking this class and learning that it isn’t for me. Then I am back at square one again. I can’t let myself get carried away about this; I mean I haven’t even taken the class yet!!

One step at a time…

So after much deliberation with myself I decided to take a makeup class. I did research on it and found a really reputable makeup artist who works for magazines, does photo shoots for famous celebrity and also does product testing for a lot of companies. I met with her yesterday to see her studio and her portfolio to see if she was actually legit. It was a really nice place, very close to my job, and her portfolio was amazing! She even showed me pictures of her with Kevin Bacon! Needless to say I was hooked. Also the price wasn't too outrageous, some of the classes I looked up were upwards of 4 to 6 thousand dollars, this one was below 700! And it's only a 2 day class. I figure it's the perfect way to get a taste of it and see if it's something I am truly interested it. But the biggest reason why I decided to do this was because I didn't want to be 80 looking back at my life and regretting the fact that I never at least tried. Cause I just know it would be something that would haunt me! And don't get me wrong; I'm not going to be an idiot about this. I have no plans of taking this class, deciding I'm gonna rock at it and quit my job for bigger and better things. If this is something I truly like, I will work into it slowly. Something along the lines of working during the weekend and seeing where it eventually takes me. The class is in about 2 weeks, April 13th and 14th and I will let you know how it goes!

P.S. – I am also going to start looking into schools that offer degrees in social working! Yes I am still concerned about student loans, but I figured I already have a lot and since I'll be paying for the next 15 years, I may as well tack on some more!

What do you want to be when you grow up?

Before I start my official blog, I just have to make a note of how addicting this thing already is. It took all of my willpower to NOT make a post this past weekend. All I kept on thinking was my next post! It’s lame I know, but it just struck as so funny. I used to hate writing in a journal and there I was waiting for Monday to happen so I can make a post!! Anyway I digress.

I left my last post last time promising to deconstruct each of the careers that have been really peaking my interest. Let me first start with teaching cause that’s the easiest. I’m actually not that interested in becoming a teacher, but I seem to have a natural ability to teach and I can handle children really well (read: I have a lot of patience). I used to teach swim lessons and most of the parents would come up to me and ask if I was going to become an actual teacher. I would always laugh because that had never interested me. Well the other day, my mom told me that I should really consider becoming a teacher. Which is really weird because when I went to college my mom told me that I was not allowed to major in education because it was a copout. Now here she is telling me that I should go for it. But even though I seem to have this ability, I’m still not that interested in teaching. But than I think, maybe if I’m good at it I will eventually enjoy doing it. So I don’t know. But for now I view it as more as a last option, if nothing else works out.

Now becoming a makeup artist is my career of the moment right now. Ever since I was a kid, I loved makeup. Which is strange because my mom hates makeup and I only have bothers, but nonetheless I was hooked. I have an entire drawer dedicated to my makeup. And I love it when my friends let me do their makeup. I think that this is something that can truly make me happy. However I’m scared. I’m scared of not being any good at it, or if I am good, not getting any jobs to support myself. I don’t want to be working in Macy’s behind a counter, I want to do photo shoots or work at a magazine or at a cosmetics company. But what if that doesn’t happen? I’m also scared of not making any money. I don’t want to be the person who went to college, ditched all that to become a makeup artist, is not making any money and has to live at home for the rest of her life. I’m also scared that I will loose interest. I mean that seems to be happening a lot lately to me. In college I was going to be a speech pathologist and I lost interest in that, and then I majored in mass communication and I don’t really have any interest in that anymore. What if that happens again? And than where am I?? Finally what I’m most afraid of is people looking down at me. But that’s just my ego talking. But the people who I’ve told this to so far have said the same thing to me, “so basically you went to college for no reason.” Which really pisses me off, cause I have a diploma and no one can take that away from me, even if I just become a makeup artist. And plus college itself is more about (to me anyway) the experiences and the growth that happens while you there. It’s a big stepping-stone into the real world. I just don’t want everyone to look down at me, because I am choosing to do this now.

As for the other ones, photography and being a social worker both requires me to go back to school. And not only that, pay a lot more money. For photography it’s one of those things that I am interested in every other day. I don’t think my heart is in it enough to actually go through with it. Becoming a social worker is another thing that I am constantly changing my mind about. But I love helping people; it’s in my nature. So I think eventually I might do this, but for now it’s not the right time.

As for being a travel writer, I enjoy writing (even though I’m not the greatest at it) and I love to travel. I studied abroad in London and I got to travel a lot while being there. And it was the happiest time in my live when I was abroad. I loved it, seeing new places, meeting new people, and seeing people’s cultures up close and personal. I was so happy being there that I actually lost 40 pounds! But it’s really hard to get into that business. You have to be well established as a writer before you can even consider getting to do that. And also I think it have to do more with the traveling, I want to be able to travel, not necessarily have to write about it. Which is why being a makeup artist is so appealing to me. If I get to be successful and make enough money, I can choose my own hours and get to travel and see the world on my own time. Also, if I were to do photo shoots and stuff I would also get to travel that way.
So to wrap up, being a makeup seems to be my dream right now. I just have to get the confidence to go after it. And I know that like 2 people read this, but I would love some feedback!!

A very long introduction (part two)

Now for the tough part, who am I? Well since that could seriously take hours to explain, I’ll do my best to keep it to the most relevant/recent stuff and as I go along in these things talk about myself. I graduated from college in May and moved back home with my mom and older brother. A few months later I got a job at a place, and I really thought it was my dream job. Well maybe that’s an exaggeration. I thought that this job was going to be the perfect stepping-stone into the career I always thought I wanted. It was a big company with many different branches. So I figured, great I will worked here for a while, build myself up and then get the pick of the liter and move to a section where I truly wanted to be. Now lets rewind back to my first day in October. I come in to my orientation; with the lovely help of HR I get myself all set up. The office is amazing: big, spacious, and a little trendy. Just the place where I always imagined working. Then all of a sudden, she takes me down to the next floor to my office. Now any other person would believe that all the offices for one company would more or less look the same. Well my friends, this was the exception. She took me down, into what I can only describe as a dungeon. It was dark, dingy, with newspapers all over the place. The cubicals, if you can even call them that, where separating people by a piece of what can only be described as white cardboard with holes all over it! But I thought to myself “its okay, and reminder it’s just a stepping-stone.” And so now it’s March and I am so completely miserable in this job. It is nothing like what I thought it was going to be. I thought it was going to be more along the lines of advertising with a hint of public relations. Little did I know that all I’m doing is grunt work, and putting ads in newspapers across the country, which wouldn’t be so bad if the people of the other end of the phone weren’t so stupid. And so on a daily basis I complain to my family and friends (and now you) about how much I dislike my job. And I hear the same thing every time, “why don’t you get another one??” Which makes sense; I hate this job so I should get another one. But the thing is, a) the economy sucks right now, so not as many people are hiring, and the biggest reason is b) I have NO idea what I want to do anymore.

This is my dilemma and the reason why I started to blog, to try and figure out what I want to do. I am hoping to use this as a forum to work through and really get down to my gut and find out what makes me the happiest. I don’t want to be one of those people who sit in their office all day, waiting for their life to begin while quietly accepting that this IS their life now. I want to look forward to going to work. And I know what you thinking, yeah she’s young and dumb and needs to realize that she will have to settle and grow up. I don’t want to settle; I don’t think anyone should settle. I mean there are many good reasons to settle, money, stability, having a family, etc; and I don’t look down at people who choose those things. I just don’t want to be one of them. I figure since I’m young and still live at home with my mom, I have the ability to take chances and see where life takes me. That’s a huge advantage. I mean I really hate living at home, but I stay cause I know that I will be leaving my job soon doing god knows what. And again, when I tell you have I know idea what I want to do, I kid you not. Seriously, so far here is a list of things that I have an interest in

• Photography (which require school and equipment which equals money)


• Social Worker (again requires school and money which I don’t really have)


• Make-up artist (this is the top runner but I’m scared that I won’t make enough money)


• Teacher (but teaching what???)


• Travel writer (this is seriously a pipe dream, but what a dream it is)

Okay again I have made this thing extremely long. But after the weekend I will revist the 4 things that I think I might/could make a living at. Looking into greater detail.