YAY!

When I started this blog I never imagined anyone would read it much less give me an award for it! But here I am with my first ever Blog award!!! Thanks so much to CC from Fork in the Road for giving me this award. I also love your blog!! This really means a lot to me because my blog is very personal and I love how I am able to express myself. I also love that people actually read it and even comment on my life! Every time I get a comment I get really excited. It means so much to me! So thank you again CC and to everyone else who stops by! If you're still lurking feel free to leave a comment! If not I understand I’m still somewhat of a lurker too.

I would like to bestow this award to the people who I began reading when I first started blogging. They’re the ones that inspired me to blog and/or to keep up with it! If I could I would give this to everyone on my reader but there is a lot so I figured I would start with those that I started with in the very beginning. Check them out they are awesome!


Blogs I Love:

Karen from Smiling Through it All
E. from Like Spinning Plates
Alexandreena from A Toast to Shoes
Adventure Grrl at 100 days in Bed


Also while I am on the topic of blogging another first happened to me. I got an e-mail from a website asking for me to review it. It said that if I review their site I could either get one of their products or payment. I don’t know if this is for real or just spam. Does this happen ever to any of you? If so what do you about it?

Musings

• There was a man preaching to people on the platform today while I was waiting for the train. Why? Do you think us commuters are really bad sinners or something? I’m sorry but the last thing I want to deal with while waiting for the train is someone imposing their religious beliefs on me.
• I am loving this fall weather. I’m so excited that I spent a lot of money on fall/winter clothes this past weekend. I’m even seeing some trees start to change colors! Oh how I love when that happens!!
• I’m taking a half day off of work this coming Friday. It’s for a doctor’s appointment but even so I’m so excited to leave at one.
• Tomorrow is my best friend’s birthday. We’re calling it her Champion birthday because a psychic told her that it’s your champion year when you turn the same age as the date of your birthday. AKA she’s turning 24 on the 24th.
• Mine will be when I turn 28.
• If this is true it really sucks for people who can’t enjoy it, ala a one year old.
• I am also loving having new television to watch. My DVR is getting full and I love it. Tonight I am looking forward to watching a new episode of House.
• I sent out a bunch of resumes out today at work. I know this makes me a terrible employee but when the weekend comes the last thing I want to do is sit in front of a computer.
• I think I made a pretty decent cover letter for these applications. Let’s keep our fingers crossed.
• I am not keeping my hopes up with anything I send out. I’m tired of being disappointed all the time. Whatever happens, happens. I will just move on to the next thing.
• Even though it is fall, I can’t believe that people are already talking about Halloween. I cannot believe time is going by this fast!

Will you dress up for Halloween? If so what will you be?

Remember me?

I have been the worst blogger lately. Last week was a mess, followed by me getting really sick on Thursday and I didn’t start feeling any better until Saturday. My weekend was a bust also. I had a lot of plans and didn’t accomplish almost all of them. I also told myself I was going to start applying for jobs and that didn’t happen either. When did I become so counter-productive?? I mean I actually attempted to apply for job. I went on a few job sites and looked around but I didn’t really see anything that interested me and I refuse to apply to another job that I know I will be miserable in. But I feel like I didn’t search hard enough.

Also I forgot how much it sucks to write cover letters. I feel like all of mine are so generic and people can just read right through them. Ugh. It’s so frustrating! I never know what to say. I want to sound interested and genuine but not desperate and/or sound like every other cover letter out there. I am actually trying to write one now and I am stuck. Really really stuck. I’m to the point where I can’t really bear going to work anymore, but I know I can’t quit until I find a job so I want a new one like yesterday.

Just thinking about this makes my anxiety go crazy. I just wish there was a road map or just someone to tell me to start HERE. You know? Then last night we had a couple of people over and they all talking about how much they lover their jobs and can’t wait to go to work tomorrow and blah blah blah. It got me even more frustrated because that’s what I want to be like. I don’t care about money; I just want a job that I look forward to. Is that really too much to ask for??

P.S. Happy fall everyone! I cannot believe that it is already fall!

Can I go home?

On top of everything else this week I am sick. Seriously WTF?? It’s still technically summer and here I am sick. I really hope that this is the only time I get sick this year. It sucks. It started with a simple sore throat and escalated quickly to some very gross stuff. Unfortunately because of my vacations and other various days off I only have FIVE days available to take off until February. My company thought it was a genius idea that instead of having vacation days and sick days, why not just combine everything together? No, that is not a good idea. It gives us less days off and makes me want to NEVER take a sick day because I want to have fun on my PTOs (paid days off). So here I am at work, busy as usual and slowly dieing. I’m being a little over dramatic right now but I can be because I’m sick.

The best is that my mother, who’s a nurse, doesn’t seem to either care and/or believe that I’m sick. When I first told her this she told me to take a vitamin. A VITAMIN. I had no idea that a vitamin can cure a sore throat, congestion, and a nauseous stomach. Did you know that? Then this morning I was in a pissy mood because I don’t feel well but I still have to work, man I really wish I were still in school this would have totally be a “play hooky” day. Anyway when she asked me what was wrong, I was told her that I felt worse then ever. Her response, “Well if you would have listened to me and taken a vitamin you wouldn’t be like this”. Seriously. My mother who is a Director of Nursing where she works told me this. Um last time I checked vitamins help you stay healthy and strong, it’s preventative NOT a cure. That only made my day that much worse. Where is my mom when I was younger who would tell me everything will be okay, force me to stay home, and make me delicious pastina and anything else I wanted? I know I’m in my twenties and supposed to be a “grown-up” but days like this I want my mommy back!

Busy Busy Busy

I have been so busy these past few days. I've barely been able to get 20 minutes for lunch. I am incredibly stressed out but at the same time being so busy makes the day fly for me! Unfortunately I'm so busy I haven't had time to post or even read blogs. I'm way behind on my reader. Hopefully in a few days things will even out and I will be able to actually post a real blog and not random musings.

How's your week been going!

Bullet points

I'm too lazy to write a real post today. Instead I bring you Bullet points! Full recap of my brother's visit coming soon!

• At my job we are switching servers for our e-mails. It is a mess and I haven’t been able to check anything ALL day. It’s driving me crazy.
• On top of that work is still stressing me out. So bad that my gastric reflux is back in full swing and Tums have become my new best friend.
• Even though I hate my job, it has made me stronger and able to say “No” a lot more often in my personal life. It is finally teaching me how to put myself first in life.
• This weekend is the first weekend in months that I don’t have a lot planned. It will be devoted to looking for jobs and sending out my resume.
• I’m still not sure what I should do next, so I’m sure my search will be random.
• I’m hoping to get better results this way.
• This past weekend was a blast. I was so happy to see my brother and or little get together turned out to be a pretty big party
• Everyone seems to like his girlfriend. I give her a lot of credit because she held her own the whole weekend. It’s one thing to meet someone’s family, quite another to meet everyone that is important in his life.
• I think my brothers have a deeper respect for me after this weekend. Especially after showing off my beer pong skills. I lost every time, but held my own throughout the game.
• My mother decided to try and belittle me at every moment during the party.
• People have finally realized the hell she can put me through, and how unfair she treats me compared to my brother.
• She still has no clue that she does this.
• Other than that this weekend was a blast!