Remember me?

I have been the worst blogger lately. Last week was a mess, followed by me getting really sick on Thursday and I didn’t start feeling any better until Saturday. My weekend was a bust also. I had a lot of plans and didn’t accomplish almost all of them. I also told myself I was going to start applying for jobs and that didn’t happen either. When did I become so counter-productive?? I mean I actually attempted to apply for job. I went on a few job sites and looked around but I didn’t really see anything that interested me and I refuse to apply to another job that I know I will be miserable in. But I feel like I didn’t search hard enough.

Also I forgot how much it sucks to write cover letters. I feel like all of mine are so generic and people can just read right through them. Ugh. It’s so frustrating! I never know what to say. I want to sound interested and genuine but not desperate and/or sound like every other cover letter out there. I am actually trying to write one now and I am stuck. Really really stuck. I’m to the point where I can’t really bear going to work anymore, but I know I can’t quit until I find a job so I want a new one like yesterday.

Just thinking about this makes my anxiety go crazy. I just wish there was a road map or just someone to tell me to start HERE. You know? Then last night we had a couple of people over and they all talking about how much they lover their jobs and can’t wait to go to work tomorrow and blah blah blah. It got me even more frustrated because that’s what I want to be like. I don’t care about money; I just want a job that I look forward to. Is that really too much to ask for??

P.S. Happy fall everyone! I cannot believe that it is already fall!