Dreams part 2

Thanks to the lovely Turquoise Ribbons, I am now obsessed with http://www.dreammoods.com/. So I did a lot of researching yesterday (it was a long day at work) and I discovered some partial answers to my questions. I would like to share with you my discoveries and tell you whether or now I agree with it.

Recurring Dreams.
According to the website:

"Recurring dreams are quite common and are often triggered by a certain life situation or a problem that keeps coming back again and again. These dreams may recur daily, once a week, or once a month, but whatever the frequency, there is little variation in the dream content itself. It usually points to a personal weakness, fear, or your inability to cope with something in your life past or present."

- I agree with this concept, but I have not idea what the hell my dreams are trying to tell me. Which is probably why I keep on having it over and over again. If I had to guess, it might be the fact that I'm unsatisfied with my current job, living situation, just my life in general. It may be a signal for me to get off my ass and do something about it.


Dream taking place in my old house
According to the website:
"To see your childhood home in particular, suggests your own desires for building a family. It also reflects aspects of yourself that were prominent or developed during the time you lived in that home. You may experience some feelings or unfinished expression of emotions that are now being triggered by a waking situation."

- I don't really feel a desire to have a family in my waking life, mostly because I am still way to young. But the second part I can totally understand. I was a much different and happier person in that home. I would give anything to have that confidence back and to feel that way again. Which is probably why I am currently holding myself back, I am afraid I won't succeed. Back then I always at least tried new things. Lately I haven't even tried.

Dreams taking place in a village
According to the website:
"To dream that you are in a village, represents restrictions. It may also indicate that you are unsophisticated, but well-balanced. Alternatively, it signifies community, simplicity, and tradition."

- Couldn't agree more.

I could keep going but I don't want to bore you. But I do suggest you check out the website. It has been really eye opening for me. It made me step back and really think about my life. Don't get me wrong, I have been doing that a lot lately, but this made me look at it from a different angle. It really helped me recognize a lot of my insecurities and unrest.

Falling from the sky…

Let’s talk about dreams. I have really crazy dreams. I love trying to decode what my dreams mean and how to “solve” them. I came across this article on dreams and it addresses the 7 most common types of dreams, from falling to finding yourself naked in a crowded room. Of course for me, none of these explanations really helps. My dreams are never that cut and dry. They are vivid and have extreme detail in them. Since I don’t sleep that soundly to begin with, I always seem to be able to remember my dreams because I wake up so often.

What I want to know is why in my dreams; no matter what I’m doing, they always take place in one of 2 places? Either in my old house, or in this village that my mind made up (but it always looks the same in my dream). Seriously, they are always in either one of these places. Sometimes it defers and goes some place else, but very rarely. What does that mean? Does my brain lack imagination while I’m sleeping? One time I had a dream I was on the Real World Seattle (which was one of my favorites) and while I was in Seattle on that dock, the house was still the one I used to live in.

I need to find a dreamologist, whatever they are called, and get some answers. Interestingly I did find out once that if you are going to the bathroom in your dream it meant that you are relieving stress.

Here is something funny, one time I was dreaming that I was falling, only to wake up right before I face planted into my nightstand. I almost broke my noise. Or another time I was dreaming that I was climbing a mountain, and I woke up on my floor, feet up on the bed, clutching my comforter like a rope.

Does anybody know why that happens? Why when your dreaming it can get so intense that your body acts it out? What about you? Any dreams that you wish you could make sense of??

I want to be a teen again!

The weekend with my cousins ended up being really fun. I felt like a kid myself and acted like an idiot the whole time. I loved every minute of it! Including when the waitress thought I was a child and did a double take when I handed her my credit card to pay for the bill. I’m pretty sure she thought I was going to give her cash and stiff her with the tip. P.S. I actually gave her a large tip, because I used to work at a restaurant (hostess) and I know how stingy other people will be with tips. The good thing was only the twins came with their friend and it is a lot more easier to deal with 3 teens rather than 4. Trust me. The only bad thing was it took me over an hour to get to their house, when it should have taken only 30 minutes. It would have been longer if I would have taken the parkway, but my aunt gave me alternate directions that would have been a lot faster minus the car accident that was there! It was still faster than the other way.

Friday when I got back to my house they wanted to go swimming. Thankfully a friend of the family didn’t mind and we ended up swimming at her house at 8 at night. I cannot remember the last time I went swimming so late and just acted like a goofball. We played games, had races and handstand contests. Whereas if I was with my friends we would have just lounged in the water, with maybe the occasional race or handstand contest. I mean I played Sharks & Minnows, Marco Polo, and the movie game! It was GREAT! Afterwards we went for a drive and got ice cream at my all time favorite place, where Bruce Springsteen actually goes to get ice cream, unfortunately he wasn’t there.

Saturday we went to the beach, then to a pool, then out to lunch. They aren’t the biggest beach fans which I don’t understand, but whatever it was their day. Being out in the sun all day completely zapped out all my energy. I was so tired but I still had to get back in the car and drive them home. Thankfully my aunt must have taken pity on me and she made me her delicious homemade pizza. It was amazing and completely made up for all the driving I did. She even gave me a whole pie to take home. Too bad my brother ate almost all of it. He left me a whole 2 slices. By the time I got home, I crashed on my couch and was a zombie for the rest of the night. I am glad though that I did it and I’m pretty sure they had a great time.

Sunday was a crazy day weather wise. It was raining like crazy and we had terrible thunderstorms. Three people were struck by lighting at the beach I usually go to, and one of them actually died! There was no way I was going out in that weather, and I was very happy to just cuddle up with my dog and watch TV for the whole day. Usually I get restless after a while, but Sunday I didn’t move and it was total bliss. The weekend ended much to soon. It’s only Monday and I cannot wait for Friday again!

Wish me luck!

In the beginning of the summer I promised my aunt that I would take her daughters for the weekend. There are 3 of them, 16 and the twins are 14. I love these girls like they are my own and I try to spoil them as much as possible because their father is a piece of shit. Seriously, I don’t hate anyone, but this man is ridiculous. He has “medical problems” and hasn’t worked in the past 4 years, forcing my aunt to work 3 jobs simultaneously just so they can make their mortgage payments. While he stays at home sleeping all day and all night. She barely has enough money to go grocery shopping. My mother and me do whatever we can to help out those girls, because they don’t deserve to have a father like that. I may not have a relationship with my dad anymore, but at least when he was still married to my mom he was a good person. He was never disrespectful and could never fathom staying at home and not working to support his family. Another thing I hate is how he doesn’t realize what amazing kids he has. They are the most well behaved teenagers you have ever seen and he thinks they are terrible. He once grounded one of them for a week because she took a piece of computer paper without asking. All she was allowed for the week was read the bible. I have never been grounded in my entire life and I have done stuff that is much worse!

Anyway, before this turns into a rant about this man, I am finally taking the girls for the weekend. I will pick them up after work today and have them until either Saturday night or Sunday. I just hope I can find enough stuff to do to entertain them. They might also bring one of their friends with them so that should be interesting. This girl is over their house every day and is basically their other sister, but it will be weird that she is staying at my house. As long as her mother is okay with it, it should be fine. I just don’t want them to get bored with me or think I’m really lame. I mean they are at that age where you are supposed to hate everything and you constantly talk about how bored you are. I have a couple of ideas of what to do with them; lets just hope they like it! Anyway wish me luck! Have a great weekend!

It’s hump day!

Every Wednesday I see that a lot of people post their random thoughts. Since I can’t really think one just one thing to talk about I am going to sorta do the same thing.

I am totally obsessed with watching True Life on MTV. Every time I see a new one is on or one that I haven’t’ seen I usually DVR it so I can watch it when there is nothing else on. Well last night there was nothing on so I watched one. Guess what is was called??? True Life: I’m a compulsive shopper!!!! I almost died laughing because of the post that I did that day. Then I got paranoid thinking that I could end up just like these 2 girls who owed thousands of dollars. One stole her parent’s card and maxed it out, the other never paid her bills and one day Rent-a-Center came and took all of her furniture!! Then I realized that I would never be that stupid, seriously these girls were DUMB, and I’m very good at paying all my bills on time. I usually pay them way before they are even due. I’m actually very paranoid of going into crazy debt, especially since I already owe a lot of student loans.

Speaking of shopping, I totally forgot to mention yesterday that while yes I did spend 200 dollars at Nordstrom, I ended up saving over 100 dollars. I did the math and saw that I actually got some really good quality clothes that will last at a pretty good discount.

I did something to my neck the other day and I’m in a lot of pain. I think I must have slept on it wrong because it hurts every time I try to move it. I thought it would be gone by now, it happened 3 days ago, but it’s actually worse then ever. I told my mom about it and see gave me an amazing neck massage to try and get the knot out of my neck. It felt great at the time so I thought a good nights sleep would do it and I would have no more pain today. Wrong. I woke up and not only is my neck in pain still but it has also traveled into my back. AWESOME. Not only that, I now have a HUGE bruise on my neck. I rarely ever bruise but seriously, it looks like a boyfriend beat the crap out of me. The next person who asks me what happens: I’m going to bit my lip, start to quiver and tell her that I “accidentally” fell into a door.

I think I’m losing it at work. I am no longer speaking in coherent sentences, and I’m finding ways to amuse myself. People are starting to look at me like I’m crazy. This is what happens when I start to get stir crazy. I start acting strange. Since my fellow co-workers don’t know this about me, they just try to not make any eye contact with me. But seriously I need something to do NOW, or this will get worse. I actually had to call a woman up to ask her a question and I started to talk in circles. When I realized this, I decided to start all over and actually said, “Hello this is Rose from Blah blah.” She was so confused that she started to laugh. Not just laugh, but I actually think she was crying a little bit from laughing so hard. I just told her that it’s been a long day, and then she actually thanked me for cheering up hers. Then I was actually happy at myself for making her happy, even though I made an ass out of myself. I don’t really mind when I act like this, other people do, but I just don’t care. It’s a clear sign that I need to get out of here ASAP. Maybe this weekend, I will take a big look deep down to see what my next move should be. Knowing me I will probably end up procrastinating and go to the beach. Oh well it’s worth a shot.

Another thing is I’m dying to go swimming is a POOL. I cannot believe that it’s the end of July and I haven’t been in a pool. Sure I’ve been in the ocean plenty of times, but a pool is different. I prefer it, especially now that the jellyfish have reached the Jersey Shore. Every year at this time, when the water finally gets to a temperature that is bearable to swim in they pop up. First it’s the babies, which don’t sting but you feel like your swimming in Jell-O and it really creeps me out. Then they grow up and there are tons of pink ones just waiting to sting and kill you. My biggest fear is I’m going to go to the ocean, dive into a wave, only to be hit by a jellyfish in my face! I’ve never actually been stung by one before, but I am deathly afraid of them. I need to find a pool to swim in stat, or I might go pool hopping and break into one. I’ll keep you posted.

So anything random, crazy or even rants that you need to get off your chest?

I think I have an addiction…

to online shopping! I can’t seem to stop myself. During the day, the amount of time I do actual work would be about 15 percent. The other 85 percent of the day is consisted of me surfing the web. After about an hour I’ve read all my blogs, checked out facebook and my e-mail about 20 times. There is never anything new in there, but I keep on checking. To fill up the rest of my time I peruse and inevitably end up buying a lot of stuff. My biggest weakness would be Sephora. I AM OBSESSED with all things makeup and beauty, so a website like Sephora is the Promised Land to me. I spend at least 50 bucks a pop when I buy from there (can you say free shipping?) and my checking account is starting to dwindle. I decided that I would no longer buy stuff online unless I really really needed it.

Well that lasted about a day. It lasted until I saw that Nordstrom was having a really big sale. Their “Anniversary Sale” to be exact. I thought to myself I could at least see what they might have to offer. Then I reasoned that I am in need of some new shirts to wear to work. 200 dollars later and I can now expect some fabulous new clothes by Monday. 200 DOLLARS!! I NEVER spend that much money on anything in one shot, well expect for my bags but that’s another problem for a different day. I never spend that much money in a 20 minute period of time. When I actually go to the mall to go shopping it takes me forever to decide if I'm going to purchase something “pricey”. With online shopping I apparently have no trouble spending that much money. On a side note I was originally only going to spend $149 dollars, but then I saw that if you spent $200 dollars you got free shipping. In order to avoid paying 14 dollars on shipping I decided to spend another 51 dollars. lol. I am every merchant’s dream. I fall for those schemes all the time!

Anyway I could have used that 200 dollars toward on of my bills, or better yet I could have put it in my savings. But instead I keep on doing this. Don’t get me wrong I love treating myself once in a while, but this needs to stop. It’s just so damn tempting when I have nothing else to do! I need to have better while power!