Getting to know me

So I don’t really have anything to write about, but since I am about to go on vacation and won’t be posting for a while I decided to write a list of things about me. There are random and not so random facts about who I am. Enjoy!

• My parents separated when I was 12
• Their divorce wasn’t finalized until I was in high school (it was nasty)
• I thought my parents were blissfully happy
• My dad turned into a different person after he left my mom
• We no longer have a relationship (a long story for a different day)
• Even though the above seem like really sad stuff, I’m totally okay with it
• I truly believe I am a better person for all that’s happened to me
• I don’t like to talk about my past that much
• I hate when people pity me
• I’ve had 10 surgeries in my short life span
• 5 Knee surgeries (3 in one year)
• I will always have problems with my leg
• I used to be angry about that, but now just accept it as a fact of life
• 2 shoulder surgeries that happened almost exactly a year apart
• I’ve had tube in my ears – TWICE
• Have a lot of scar tissue that cause hearing problems some times
• And my appendix was taken out when I was 6
• I was the same height in the 7th grade as I am now
• Ditto for my shoe size
• When I stopped growing, my other friends finally started
• I am the only person in my immediate family that has blue eyes
• I have 3 older brothers
• One of them is my half brother who I haven’t seen in over 6 years, and talked to in over 10
• When people ask me how many siblings I had I used to say 2 because it stopped a long and confusing conversation from happening
• I still sometimes say just 2
• The beach is my favorite place in the world
• I am deathly afraid of jelly fish
• I wish I knew what I wanted to do with the rest of my life
• But feel comfort in the fact that there are many others out there just like me
• When I decide to do something, I always follow through
• I’ve been skydiving
• I have 2 tattoos
• I studied abroad in London
• I’ve visited various parts of France, Italy and Greece
• I went to Paris by myself not knowing one word of French
• It was my favorite trip I took
• I seriously considered moving to London before I realized I had no money
• I secretly pray to win the lottery
• I very rarely actually buy a lottery ticket cause it’s too sad when I don’t win
• I love my family
• I feel more of a kinship with my grandma than my own mother
• I would never tell my mom that cause it would kill her
• I consider my best friend to be my sister and soul mate
• I am obsessed with purses and shoes
• I spend way to much money on my bags
• I have very little faith in marriage and trust cause of what happened to my mom
• I have never been in a serious relationship
• I’m too scared that I’ll be hurt and turn into my mother
• I use my weight as an excuse as to why guys won’t date me
• I know that’s not true, but use it as a shield anyway
• I went to therapy when I was in college, but stopped after I graduated
• I don’t feel like going to see someone else, cause then I would have to start all over again.
• Amazingly I am truly no longer depressed,
• I still have anger and anxiety issues I need to deal with
• Writing is my outlet for these things (hence the name of my blog)
• I’m too scared to post of lot of things on my blog,
• for fear of people either recognizing me or what they might think
• I also fear that people will judge me on my blog, cause it’s so self indulgent
• I know that’s stupid, cause isn’t that the point of people blogging?

I could probably keep on going, but I should really get back to work and actually do something productive. I won’t be around ‘til after Memorial Day. Hope everyone has a great weekend!