Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Getting to know me

So I don’t really have anything to write about, but since I am about to go on vacation and won’t be posting for a while I decided to write a list of things about me. There are random and not so random facts about who I am. Enjoy!

  • My parents separated when I was 12
  • Their divorce wasn’t finalized until I was in high school (it was nasty)
  • I thought my parents were blissfully happy
  • My dad turned into a different person after he left my mom
  • We no longer have a relationship (a long story for a different day)
  • Even though the above seem like really sad stuff, I’m totally okay with it
  • I truly believe I am a better person for all that’s happened to me
  • I don’t like to talk about my past that much
  • I hate when people pity me
  • I’ve had 10 surgeries in my short life span
  • 5 Knee surgeries (3 in one year)
  • I will always have problems with my leg
  • I used to be angry about that, but now just accept it as a fact of life
  • 2 shoulder surgeries that happened almost exactly a year apart
  • I’ve had tube in my ears – TWICE
  • Have a lot of scar tissue that cause hearing problems some times
  • And my appendix was taken out when I was 6
  • I was the same height in the 7th grade as I am now
  • Ditto for my shoe size
  • When I stopped growing, my other friends finally started
  • I am the only person in my immediate family that has blue eyes
  • I have 3 older brothers
  • One of them is my half brother who I haven’t seen in over 6 years, and talked to in over 10
  • When people ask me how many siblings I had I used to say 2 because it stopped a long and confusing conversation from happening
  • I still sometimes say just 2
  • The beach is my favorite place in the world
  • I am deathly afraid of jelly fish
  • I wish I knew what I wanted to do with the rest of my life
  • But feel comfort in the fact that there are many others out there just like me
  • When I decide to do something, I always follow through
  • I’ve been skydiving
  • I have 2 tattoos
  • I studied abroad in London
  • I’ve visited various parts of France, Italy and Greece
  • I went to Paris by myself not knowing one word of French
  • It was my favorite trip I took
  • I seriously considered moving to London before I realized I had no money
  • I secretly pray to win the lottery
  • I very rarely actually buy a lottery ticket cause it’s too sad when I don’t win
  • I love my family
  • I feel more of a kinship with my grandma than my own mother
  • I would never tell my mom that cause it would kill her
  • I consider my best friend to be my sister and soul mate
  • I am obsessed with purses and shoes
  • I spend way to much money on my bags
  • I have very little faith in marriage and trust cause of what happened to my mom
  • I have never been in a serious relationship
  • I’m too scared that I’ll be hurt and turn into my mother
  • I use my weight as an excuse as to why guys won’t date me
  • I know that’s not true, but use it as a shield anyway
  • I went to therapy when I was in college, but stopped after I graduated
  • I don’t feel like going to see someone else, cause then I would have to start all over again.
  • Amazingly I am truly no longer depressed,
  • I still have anger and anxiety issues I need to deal with
  • Writing is my outlet for these things (hence the name of my blog)
  • I’m too scared to post of lot of things on my blog,
  • for fear of people either recognizing me or what they might think
  • I also fear that people will judge me on my blog, cause it’s so self indulgent
  • I know that’s stupid, cause isn’t that the point of people blogging?

I could probably keep on going, but I should really get back to work and actually do something productive. I won’t be around ‘til after Memorial Day. Hope everyone has a great weekend!


Karen said...

That is some interesting stuff. Have a great trip.

the glitter kid said...

I share quite a few of the things on the list including spending time abroad and skydiving :) I just deleted most of the entries from my blog because I wanted to start over/was feeling self-conscious. I don't know how some people are able to totally let go and just put everything out there on the web for all to see.
Have an awesome trip!!