Thursday, March 26, 2009

When did I become so responsible?

I decided not to go. Even though the trip sounded amazing, deep down I didn’t want to go. There are million reasons why, but when it came down to it, it just didn’t feel right. I’ve learned a long time ago to always trust my gut feeling about things. Last time I ignored it bad things happened, like me getting arrested (another post for a different day) or getting into a car accident. My instincts are usually right on, so better to be safe.

What really made me confident in my decision was the second I said no I felt relief. Which goes to show that this was the best decision for me. My friend on the other hand is really angry with me. However I won’t change my mind because she’s mad, I have in the past, she’ll just have to get over it. Which I know she will, I just have to give her space.

It’s so weird how much you change but don’t realize it. If this had been last year, you better believe I would be packing up my bathing suit right now. I wouldn’t have given it a second thought. Now, the first the things that pop into my mind are, how much will this cost? What about work? Do I really want to use up my vacation days so early in the year? What about transportation? Isn’t Mexico in a drug war?

I guess that’s what happens. All of sudden you’re an adult and there’s no turning back. No matter how much you try.

Anyway it’s not like I won’t be going away this year. I’m already planning a trip to Florida this summer and a few other excursions that will most likely happen this year.

1 comment:

erin - heart in ireland said...

I think it is best sometimes to trust your gut. And it sounds like you are happy with it.
But yea, becoming an adult is scary. I'm buying a car tomorrow, and I went to the dealers today by myself and it really made me feel grownup!